Maybe I DO

This is actually the introduction to a novel I have yet to finish. I know how it ends i just haven't put the pen and pad to bed. I guess I'm just selfish like that.

Pretty pink carnations, doves with ribbons loosely attached around their feet... Even the cleshayed but popular song to match. SHe's got the best of both orlds. She's got everything she wanted for her first and last wedding. I'm just glad I could be the one she chose to share it with. When I got that invitation in the mail I started not to come. I thought to myself, what should you wear to the wedding that was suppoused to be yours? Hmm.. that was a tough one at first. Then i remembered I had the perfect dress!! I hurried my hair into pin curls and spirals. I was going to be the bell of the ball. WHen i arrived all eyes were on me. His mother caught my attention so i waved. His sister Stephanie looked cute as a brides maid. Glad to see everyone got what they wanted. Even i got what I wanted. I was walking down the aisle towards the man I loved. I was even wearing my mothers wedding dress. The guest list wasn't to my liking. Though it didn't matter becuase my family wouldn't have shown up regardless. I was two rows away from the alter when -- "What are you trying to pull?," said Mrs. Johnson. She grabbed me by my left arm, ruffling my dolloar store lillies. The bride must have been loose on the dress code. The brides maids and the maid of honor clashed in colors, fabrics, and patterns. Darnells mother looks like the Big bird off the streets of sesame. That yellow didn't even look good against her skin. I focused back on my groom. "You crazy, psychotic, bimbo!!!", shouted Crystal. He walked right past me like i wasn't even there. Rushed straight into the arms of that b***h. The one thast everyone came to see, the real bride to be. Judging from her choice of words she recieved my pre wedding gift. I placed a sex tape that me and her fiance had made two weeks before today. I put it in a red box with a white bow. I turned to find the bride sitting on the filthy floor in her all white gown. I bet you she couldn't even wear an off white gown if your speaking in terms of tradition. "Baby call down. I told you about inviting her in the first place," said Darnell. The original and only Mrs. J untightened her grip. Thats when i realized she only did it so she could start poking me. That can get so annoying. "Excuse me mom, but can i help you?" "You better not ruin this day for them. You had your chance with my son and you blew it!!," shouted Mrs. Johnson. Seeing him standing next to Crystal made it all clear, Crystal clear. She was right about one thing. I had blown my chances with him, though I wouldn't miss the once in a lifetime oppertunity to get even with the one woman who stole my dreams from me. I couldn't understand why he was trying to console her. I pondered who was going to console him? I shifted the items in my hand around so i could better grip my train. I headed right for the preacher. He had the best seat in the house. Crystal Edmands has stolen the show for the moment but it won't be long. Soon i'll be the one everyone wants to know about. Then they'll see what a mistake they've made. I readjusted the answer to my problems. All of a sudden i felt a gentle touch on my shoulder. "My child, I may be blind but even I can see your hurting and filled with a lot of pain. I assure you that there are other options and you don't want to do this." One tear rolled down my cheeck as I thought about his one poetic gigt that he gave to me. That one damn line, "No maybe babies becuase porcelian eyes don't cry." I shook my momentary guilt and remorse. It didn't matter anymore. Why should she be able to have him when i waited all my life for that one guy that shared the same dreams and aspirations as me? No, no more of that crap. My tears were just as real as hers. "No daddy, why can't i pick the lilly?" He tightened his fingers on my shoulder. It was as if he saw what no one else did. He was actually digging his nails into my skin as he said, "No!! You don't want to do this!" His loud out burst brought everyones attention back towards me. He set it up perfectly. Besides, how could he of all peopl eknow what i wanted. He was a part of the reason i didn't have his son now. I refocused my sights on Crystal and said, "YOu know what? Maybe I do."

Chapter 1:
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