Through the Eyes of The Addict's Angel

Through the Eyes of an Addict’s Angel

 

She watches overwhelming sound waves that mirrors agony and pain,

Inwardly her learned natural instincts alienates her crying-reaching-out heart,

Blending together each family member to another link of the devastating chain,

And the total trust and belief feels there’s no point to even start.

 

But the Angel knows of the darkness,

When the nighttime sky is starless,

Through the eyes of the Addict’s Angel

She witnesses NO light!

 

So the angel listens to each and every story never seeming to end,

They all have something worthy of nothing to say,

Yet none of the family relations takes even a moment to spend,

On anything productive for themselves or the addict that or any day.

 

But the Angel knows of the darkness,

And when the nighttime sky is starless,

Through the eyes of the Addict’s Angel,

She witnesses NO light!

 

Together they grope for an “ol” mathematic concept that still remains,

Addicts and Angels feel it, the starting place,

But ironically it is called a “Universal Constant”, and regains,

 But for it to happen, “CHANGE” can only go at the addicts pace.

 

But the Angel knows of the darkness,

And when the sunshine is like a pastel page,

Through the eyes of the Addict’s Angel,

She witnesses the first signs of the change.

 

Putting together that which is broken is always tough,

With the addict it takes tedious hours of empathy,

The addict must make the first move, which is rough,

The angel then can have some sympathy.

 

But the Addicts Angel knows the darkness,

And when the nighttime sky is starless,

She senses when the addict is hit,

And the smallest of candles is finally lit.

 

Through the eyes of the Addicts Angel

She begins to see the bright candle shine,

And she knows in time he could be fine,

Through the eyes of the Addicts Angel it was all worth her time!

 

By

LadyAnn Graham-Gilreath

September 10,2012

 

© for LadyAnn Graham-Gilreath

Reviews

[Ghost Writer]

This really got to me.

[LadyAnn68]

Ia m so proud of this one poem and it ahs given me new purpose and tstrength to continue my work in addciton poetry and therpeutic writing. I thank you for you efforts and contest..it has made my day COMPLETE!

[LadyAnn68]

I hope you know that I am the addicts angel who also suffered addiction, and hope to save as many as I can..I am the addicts angel.

[Frieda P]

This hits too close to home, heavy sigh here. My son is a recovering addict. Brilliant poem with a message that needs to be heeded.

'Blending together each family member to another link of the devastating chain'

Is is so devastating for anyone to watch this destruction happening. Brava for having the courage to write this one, and give addiction angels a voice.

[LadyAnn68]

OMG thank you so much for those words! I am a recovered addict an am in Addiction Studies in medical school right now! I am the angel here in my heavy heart when interviewing and other client that is so far gone and I know of their darkness because I was there! This is such a destructive disease it is so hard to START the repairs! Thank you for those kind words!

[Frieda P]

My pleasure and it makes my heart smile to know it can be done, he's been clean for a bit but he's already done three stints in rehab, so there's always that fear of slipping back into it...good on you, keep up the good work!

[LadyAnn68]

I went to 22 rehabs and 25 psychiatrists! don't ever give yup on him! Family is THEE most important thing! When you are coming up; and it is hard.... ever effort must be praised!

[Frieda P]

My lord, 22....I never, ever give up on him, but he tends to give up on himself.

[LadyAnn68]

I know how that is! I put my parents through LITERAL HELL!

[Frieda P]

YES it literally is....!!

[LadyAnn68]

Awww....but you live him and that is what makes the difference...my parents NEVER gave up!

[Claire in VA]

I am proud that you are now an addict's angel and now live to serve others.
That is awesome!!

I see a few tiny mistakes that I would correct, but this is your work, and maybe
you chose to write it the way you did for a reason. Please always check to see
if the reviewer is correct because I could be wrong!!
+sound waves that mirror
+natural instincts alienate
+crying, reaching-out heart
+You forgot the ' in the last stanza in Addict's.

I enjoyed the content!
~Claire in VA

[LadyAnn68]

Thank you! I appreciate the review! It is important.

[m.s.early]

and i wonder how many seeds this poem will plant in the minds eye of those that are seeking it.
your form is exquisite and your diction is elegant. you speak with a wisdom that not many of us share.
this a superb write, relative in subject and skillfully crafted. bravo!

[LadyAnn68]

Thank you sooo much for that! I surely do appreciate this! I have the experience...26 years worth! But I am in medical school and it si going to be great! I will be the very best counselor this country has seen!

[Jackson H. Harley]

This is a wonderfully written poem, the perfectly chosen words portray powerful emotion and struggle, a clear and well spoken message, many can learn from this, if only I had these wise words a year or so ago, great poem, a new favourite of mine :)

[LadyAnn68]

I thank you for your review..now I will endeavor to include it in my new Poetry Addiction Therapy Book coming out in July 14. I want to help develop a therapy activity-based poetry challenge book...do you think it has possibilities?

[Jackson H. Harley]

I would think so, I would definetely be interested, and it would be rather unique I guess :)

[LadyAnn68]

EXACTLY!!!!!! It will be the very first one!

[Jackson H. Harley]

To which I say: go for it :p

[Sami Khalil]

Your are embarking on a great and noble mission in life to get the proper education of addiction psychology and help others in the fight that will destroy them and others eventually if they do not become clean and free.
Thank you for shedding the light on this important subject in society. Wishing you all the good luck and more power to you...:).......

[LadyAnn68]

If I can just graduate...I will be overly thankful to the Lord! I Thank you!

[Sami Khalil]

Yep. You are welcome...:)........................

[Coyote Poetry]

I could feel the thoughts and struggle in your words. Sometime hard to see the good in a new day.
"But the Angel knows of the darkness,
And when the sunshine is like a pastel page,
Through the eyes of the Addict’s Angel,
She witnesses the first signs of the change."
The above lines stood for me in the poem. You must understand pain to grasp the vision and the struggle of another person. The poem is well written and allowed the reader to feel and know the struggle. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[LadyAnn68]

Oh thank you....I know if you liked it then I can use it in the book.

[A. Amos]

Good one LA, thanks for sharing

[LadyAnn68]

Thank you Amos. I hope you understood this one.

[Mark]

There is still so much stigma attached to being an addictive personality. If you aren't one, there really is no way to understand beyond calling us weak willed. And how many times have we chastised ourselves for that as well?

I'm not completely sure I understand what you mean by an Addicts Angel but I see in the poem things that hit home in me.

[LadyAnn68]

What I mean is that I was 26 years an addict and now I am in medical school of addicotnpsycholgoy specialist. I am the angel who has seen the darkness and knows of the hardships but can see when the first light has hit someone who is ready to make change. The angel is a previous addict who is now clean 10 years with 7 years of scientific education and 5 to go to be PhD in Addiction Psychology and is developing a therapy for addicts called poetry therapy. I want to help more than anything and I write a lot of addiction inspirational things but this was actually about the addict who turned her life around and is now trying to leave her legacy to the field! Thanks for review!

[LadyAnn68]

The addict's angel is ultimately the counselor whom the addict finds hope and caring from! Who puts trust in them and starts to get better...when this happens it usually turns out they are like angels to the ones that get saved.

[Mark]

Ah okay. You mention you were an addict. Do you think you are cured or just recovering?

[LadyAnn68]

I am always recovering, and I will always want to use, but I have made it...this is something you have to be an addict to actually understand..But I am also RECOVERED...solidly now! And we stay recovered by giving what we have away to those still suffering! Shed light on things, give hope and pryer to them!

[Mark]

My addiction is food. Never had a problem saying no to drugs or alcohol but Reeses pb cups now those I have trouble with

[LadyAnn68]

As do I .....LOL hahaha I have severe problems turning down coffee ice cream with chocolate sauce and whipped cream and a cherry on top!

[00000000000000000000000..]

How many years were you an addict don't mind me asking and how long you been clean? I understand your poem, You speak of an addict, one that sees no love, In an addicts eyes its hard to craps the concept of love and feeling and caring, addicts don't give a crape not even about theirselves, I seen meth heads junkies, coke heads, pot heads, alcohalics. I seen pill poppers all the abuse and self hurt. I seen the rage the chaotic limb. Now if you an angel than hey im happy for you I wont deny that. I have seen a lot speak of God idk why or what makes this feeling happen when one is high. Maybe God is talking maybe its just an idea idk. Maybe you cold put some light on that. I was an addict Pot pills alcohol , I did it too escape pain. Its funny you can ask an addict why they get high and not 1 can answer why. I been clean ever sense 2009 to now very proud of that.

[LadyAnn68]

I am clean Sept 3rd 2003, 10 years. I am the one is school for for this and I am going to be the best addiction psychologist! I write much is in the way of inspiration for them! I am proud that you have been clean this long that is great! Terrific! I am the addict's angel one who has been there and now serves for hope and guidance! Thanks for the review!

[0000000000000000000000000000]

Ohh ok well that's great your poem sorta reads as Sarah McLachlan- Angel she was an addict as well! Wish you the best of luck in all But God is the only one can save them if they listen, No a days its about adding more drugs to cover others I hope you don't do that, I believe in that game talk listen is the only way and breathing exercises seem to do wonders and exercise, I started riding a road bike 50 - 60 miles 3 times a week, I saw a lot on my rides I didn't go get any help I did on my own with God being their. Your welcome.