Picture In My Mind~Memories Of Another Time

Crushed Hopes

I caught a glimpse of you...

 when you didn’t know I was looking, 

 trying to rediscover what I'd forgotten about you...about us

     Why I had once loved you 

       in that other time

You were standing naked in front of the mirror,

your auburn hair glistening on your wet, mortal body

You had just stepped out of your morning shower...

humming the customary tune you do so well

I stood quietly in the hall, watching you shave your golden, red beard

 while you hummed your familiar beat...keeping the rhythm with your foot...

    something you always did

It was intoxicating observing your routine without you knowing I was there

I'd watched your morning ritual many times...

you, always aware when I was looking

     In the past...

      in another time 

 

Somehow, watching you with my heart more than with my eyes...

 made me melancholy

Missing those feelings I'd once felt for you, for us and...

    perhaps still do

     So deep within my heart for awhile...

             back then 
 

Did we ever really love? Was it kismet? Was it fate?

  The question sits on unspoken lips

     I sighed...

        missing us   

    

When our melody began you sang the notes to my heart

 so well, so tender

We soared on the music our mouths relishing the kiss

     In our moments...

       for a time  

      

We were us

   you and I

Tracing our love with thirsty lips, hungry bodies

I stood there looking at you, for quite some time

    Pausing at the door before I left

knowing...

   I might never open that door again

I turned back one more time before turning to go...

making sure to remember just why I was leaving

 

     But now...

      every time I see a man shaving...

     I find myself thinking of you

 

     Goodbye

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 Now there is a big empty space

A void of nothingness

An emptiness devoid of matter

between moments I try to forget

the wisps of floating memories 

 
  
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  All poems written and copyrighted by LadeeAnne~Anne P Murray

A "Pas De Duex" of rhythm and Visions

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Kahlil Gibran~

"When you cease to be at peace with your thoughts

Let there be spaces in your togetherness"