Where Can I Hide?

I wrote this for loved ones & others who've struggled down long, cumbersome roads of addiction. After long years of struggle and denial they won their battles and are free. I applaud their courage!

of struggle and denial they won their battles and are free. I applaud their courage!

Where do I go, where can I hide?

There’s so much fear and pain inside

The secrets I keep, they’re killing my soul

I truly can’t allow anyone to know.

 

I can’t allow anyone to see

Can’t allow myself to be me

The chance of betrayal causes so much fear

I’m so afraid to allow anyone too near

 

So where can I go?

How much longer can I hide?

If I confess my secrets…

Will I be judged and tried?

 

I have so much guilt

My heart’s full of pain

There’s so much to lose

Yet so much to gain

 

Where do I go?

How much longer can I hide?

There’s so much shame

So many times I’ve tried

 

It’s touch on my spirit

It’s so hard on my pride

I’m so dam tired of acting

I’m tired of my lies

 

I’ve found rejection by myself and others

I’ve been lost and betrayed

My heart’s so weary

My nerves so frayed

 

No……

I will fight this war

I’ll fight to be free

I’ll never give up!

This addiction is not me!

 

Copyright:1998

LadeeAnne~Anne P. Murray

 

               

Reviews

[highthought]

a lot to gain from this poem...one of the amazing thing in life is that we can hide our inside and no one would know what we really are
you brought a very deep topic , something i was asking myself lately about it
thank you

[anne p. murray- LadeeAn..]

Jonathan, thank you for your review

[Jonathan]

Nicely down I like how this reads like the interpersonal struggles of an addict.
And the longing to change their ways for good?

No……
I will fight this war
I’ll fight to be free
I’ll never give up!
This addiction is not me!

Such great lines the addict excepts who he is but
Is heading towards the right path to recovery.