It Hurts So Much...

I tjhink its about Ex Bf Billy

 

It hurts so much to smile when I see you every day.

I walked to lunch today and you walked in and I wanted a hug and you gave me one. I wanted to kiss you but I had to turn away because if not the day would have crumbled and I would have cried.

It hurts so much to miss you every single day but I do miss you with every single day and it hurts like hell but that just a price you have to pay.

I try and hide the fact that I liked you but I think about you most days and with every day it gets harder to turn away.

I try not to cry when I walk away but the pain is so bad I just want you to hold me and make all that pain go away. But I walked away know that were just friends and that’s all we will ever be.

 

It hurts so much I try to lie to myself and say it’s a mistake your hurt just yearns but I know it a lie in my mind and heart…

 

Written: September 10, 2008