If I were a virgin

The things I miss about having my virginity

If I were a virgin

I'd play with my dolls again

Have them fully dressed 

And just have them talk

Innocently

Purely

Not worrying about where baby Annabel came from

If I were a virgin

The only blood I would be bleeding

Would come from ovulation

From the walls being cleansed 

From new eggs beings made

but no use for them

If I were a virgin

I wouldn't touch myself

It would feel weird

The clear slime

And increased heart rate

would simply scare me

If I were a virgin

I'd want to lay next to my build a bear

Not worry about

Someone telling me

That I'm pretty

that I'm smart

that I'm loved

Because I would already know that

If I were a virgin

I'd be happy again

but I'm not

I play with my dolls

naked

like I was

I've bled

from popping cherries

and wet tears

I do touch myself

because I yearn for a good feeling

because I yearn for a warm feeling

I need to hear from a man

that I am pretty

that I am smart

that I am loved

because I don't know that

because I am not a virgin

By: Mayra Fernandez