Tumbling Walls

A New Reality Check

 

As I sit on everyday with all the time in the world to think the thoughts fill with

resentment, fear, and Isolation

 

I laugh sometimes on how one's mind can play as an only friend

that does things your way

 

The walls I put up to block out interaction with the outside world hit

hard like the swinging blows of a killer to it's victim

 

For any true loved one I do have I gnaw like a trapped rat trying to escape while

all the others around me become something less

 

Any slight moment of kindness, attention, or care by an outsider I hold onto it like each time

is my last  

 

Even as the term is said that blood is thicker than water is for me the type of blood that is

shed out of the acts that come from rage and hatred which forces me to treat it like it's

not mine

 

I maybe considered antisocial, selfish, bitter, unfaithful, sensitive, but one thing I'll never be is misery because I'll never be the one to cause it onto others