July 1st, 1995 I was 23 yrs old. I was married at 11am in a little country church surrounded by maybe 40 friends and family. Today would have been my 19th wedding anniversary if only we would have had the strength and the wisdom to keep it together.
I watch people every day taking advantage of their relationships, of the one person that should come first in their life only behind God. It makes me sad, sometimes it makes me angry the way they treat each other. We should put true love on a sacred pedestal, guard it like the treasure that it is, fight to the death to protect it and never EVER let the fire go out. I didn't do these things and I stand before you broken, ashamed and beyond remorseful. When you are alone in the night God speaks to you. He allows you to see a side of yourself that is unattractive. He shows you where you went wrong. I am wise enough to see now. Next time I will be the warrior I was intended to be. I am older, wiser and oh so grateful for what my marriage taught me. Of all the lessens.......some things can never be undone and regret can be more painful than any physical wound could ever possibly be.
Love one another passionately! Nurture your relationship! Water your grass each and every day no matter how tired or busy you are!
My prayer for you is that you have that forever love that feeds your soul. I had that once. Don't waste yours!