Into The Void (the space between us)

they said it would turn out this way
equal parts do or die/ f**k this s**t
we gotta try/ get over it

my head hurts from the low hum of it.....the muffled marital monotony....the piercing scream of the girl with steel-toed boots/the hippie-dreamer wearing jesus sandals who swore she'd always be free.

there's 2 of me and one of us whispered yes while the other screamed NO; her face pressed up against bullet proof glass, her voice ricocheted straight upward, smashing atoms, giving birth to baby universes a million miles away.

saturn's rings are eternal, baby, the only thing that keeps it in line, keeps it from pulling it's parachute and plummeting straight down, prevents it from hurling itself in a kamikaze frenzy into Neptune and yelling...

"THERE'S ONLY ROOM FOR ONE OF US SO YOU GOTTA GO"

i wished i saw a star that told me don't wish; KNOW! said, don't stay...GO!

everything in the sky lies when you're in love. the moon shines for murderers & rabid dogs, lovers & thieves....just as bright on any night you're not looking at it for answers. clouds and eagles, too-tall trees and angles camouflage its view. a crescent moon isn't a sign from god or an angel's nod to a starry eyed question you never should've asked.

somewhere on my upturned face the truth was mistaken for a meteor display, a definitive answer for a cosmic conundrum, and i just went with it. i was counting yesterday's stars, connecting the little black holes, thinking about Sally Ride and the untimely death of Carl Sagan.

i was visualizing ET's brightly lit finger pointing home.

Reviews

[Patrick Henry]

Holy sh*t!! Before I even got to the last stanza, I am thinking in my head, "Cosmos: A personal Voyage". lol I have them all on my computer and know them very well. Him and his wife are quite an interesting study. Searching the "cosmos" where our minds make sense the BS with that of what we are TOLD we are destined and programmed for, is quite exhausting!! : ) I, still, can't believe you write that. Just past halfway down what you have written, there is a line that goes "don't wish; KNOW! said, don't stay...GO!". Are you meaning to "understand" when you write "know" ? Forgive me for this, but in the beginning of your story, I read what makes me think of the many years I've walked this wicked rock, wondering why others flock, f**k, and live together. There has to be a "safe", respectable, and understood "f**k buddy" to make sense what lacks everywhere else in too many relationships and/or friendships that sour with that of the invention "time" and being complacent and of the bore!! I Loved this because I, honestly, thought I was having a conversation, an audible one, with my own memories and opinions. So, I am biased, I guess, because I really like you. A weird part of me is embarrassed that I don't spend a LOT of time on you because you DO sound so familiar and free to me in such regards. The title is perfect for this. It's an assumed one AFTER the facts of which you write, but a necessary one. : ) xoxo

[LJW]

Well,I meant "know" as in when a starry eyed couple are looking to the heavens (as they often do in Lifetime channel movies), wondering/hoping/wishing on a star that their love is real and will last forever.....it's all just wishing but they think one of those stars is sending them a private message proclaiming yes. No one, no star, nothing KNOWS....there is no Karnak the Star it's all just a cosmic crapshoot. I wish there was a star that said GO.Would save me a few hundred bucks on divorce filing fees and fifteen years of my life in the missionary position.

[Patrick Henry]

Love that last line more than you may imagine!!!Write like THAT and half of this site is gong to go nuts over you on here. lol Your comment? Totally understood!! xox -Mark

[LJW]

I've been here for years. Ssshhhh...

[K. Louis]

Some really great lines and images, so many places i nodded and said yes. well done.

[Marie Anzalone]

Once again, honesty, relevance- blows me away. I have spent 15 failed relationships trying to pound into my own head, "chemistry is not compatibility, chemistry is not compatibility..." A lock and key for which there has to be a reasonable fit, but oh so easy to get caught up when the key is so damned intriguing or the lock so shiny and beautiful. One opens the other, and our two selves each hold part of the answer. The stars are most beautiful in love, but we are not made to live on starlight alone. We either get fed for a season or so, a lifetime if really lucky, or lose it all, again, on the toss of some Universal dice that I am pretty sure are actually loaded against women like us. And how does a woman know the difference?

You HAVE to put yourself out there. Take the chance. Live with the consequences, learn the lessons. Take what you think you want, and pay for it.

I empathize more than you may know. One of the highest ratings I have ever given a piece of life/art here. Brilliant in tis format, devastating in its delivery. We have to keep believing there is a home, don't we?

[LJW]

You still got a room for me down there in So. America?
You and I would be totally compatible. You work. You write.

Er....I write. ;-)

A compliment of this magnitude from the #1 female talent on this site feels like a gamma ray burst with no protective eyewear. THANKS for blinding me. ;-)

[Marie Anzalone]

you will always be welcome in my home, should you ever decide to make the trip :-)
funny... I consider you the #1 female talent on site. and I cannot help but chuckle at your response to my review, and the 2 who voted it thumbs down.. presumably for being me? gotta love popularity politics.

LJ, your voice is astounding in its depth and honesty. Please accept that.. as we all recognize it. :-)

[LJW]

Diss a review?
Now THERE'S something Walt Whitman would approve of.

[Marie Anzalone]

two thumbs way UP!

[LJW]

Revisited this post today.
It has become my favorite.
As you have become my favorite writer friend from WC.
Your review of this...still truly humbling. Thank you so much.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

and sometimes where home is can be so confusing...something old, or something new.

we often have to get past times of boredom to stick it out in a relationship...but then the smarter half of us says 'weather it'---it's worth it.

the other half says listen to the stars and fly away.

very interesting write...quite unique in wording and style...and many of us can relate to this
universe-al piece.

[Emily B]

Yes!!!!!! This is Ziggy Zagmyer kinda perfect. The kind of poem I could tattoo on my army even if i don't really believe in tattoos for me. So glad that I stopped by to read this one.

[LJW]

Zig is the man. Yeah, we bonded over our common bond of writing this way.

You'd have to tattoo this on an army (oopsies) cuz there's a lot of words. :-)

Facing divorce, this is how I deal. Ducking stars.

Ty Emily.

[Emily B]

Linda, I'm sorry to hear that. Here for you anytime.

[LJW]

It's been a long time coming. We truly care for and respect each other. No fighting, no drama. We are still living in the same house, separate rooms, until circumstances are more favorable for the physical split. 15 years together. A beautiful soul and deserving of the same. I am beckoned to follow a different life path. On pure faith alone, I know this. We will always remain friends.

[Emily B]

change is still difficult :)

[LJW]

Stagnation is more difficult.

[Emily B]

i've been there, too

[LJW]

Ziggy Z.. A God among men. That comment alone....man, I miss him. TY again, my friend.

[Emily B]

it is good to visit these words again

[Emily B]

still YES!

[Dane Osborne]

Goddamn it you are an original.

You have a strangely perfect touch. That is something I noticed even when I was a younger and more naive "scribbler"(as opposed to "writer". Time and experience have taught me the difference) and first encountered your work.

I didn't know s**t from shinola back in those days BUT I could still see that you had something special going on with your work that alot of others don't.

[LJW]

From your mouth to the. Publishing Gods ears. Means a lot. You have been a loyal reader for years, although you disappeared for awhile.Stoked you're back. I'll come visit your page tomorrow.

Remember this my friend, in a pinch, s**t can be substituted for shinola.

I turn off my brain before I write.

[LJW]

Dane. Your talent has evolved. Sometimes we have to write a lot before we can shrug the contemporary thinking off and be ourselves. You have done it.

[ChemicalMadness]

Everything in the sky lies when you're in love? Perfect line. Love. Love the truth and organized chaos of your words.

CM

[LJW]

TY. Organized chaos indeed. Welcome inside my head.

[roarke]

yep, force of nature, yep.

my kinda gal.

and now.....something entirely different- go for it.

[LJW]

How's it going, Roarke? Nice to see you pn my cosmic journey.

[roarke]

wouldn't miss the trip for a minute LJW.... it's dang fine to read your work again. Miss the fire you bring.

[LJW]

You're a flame thrower, B.
Thank you for posting links to my work on your FB page. That literally made me cry. (Not the ugly cry, but pretty near close) You're a good friend.