Slipping Under

One time. 

Thats all it takes.

One time that you slip,

And all of the work you have done in the past years can come crumbling down.

All the bad habits you put behind you, 

You tell yourself you will never do it again….

But the temptation is always there. 

You know how good it makes you feel. 

It doesn't judge you. 

It soothes you and lets you know you are still alive,

That you CAN still feel something.

Even years after stopping,

That one slip,

And it welcomes you back with open arms. 

Almost like you never left. 

The sweet stinging sensation.

Making everything else inferior. 

That comfort that you were deprived somewhere else. 

Its my little secret. 

No one has to know but me…..

I have gone for such a long time.

But I think I am falling back under….

Slowly going back to my old ways. 

I am home. 

Author's Note

Written in the moment. Its not really one of my normal writing. A bit dark. But its necessary.

Reviews

[Lady Celery]

This poem is so accurate. I know lots of people who would understand and appreciate this, myself included. It's just so true to how you promise yourself you'll never do it again, but then you slip back and even though you broke a promise to yourself, you feel comfortable and safe again. It's such an awful thing...

Excellent work. It was deep and emotional, but still sadly beautiful.

[Potter]

Within the character of the write I want to say: Dont do it!

But in the overall context this is powerful.

[Eagle Cruagh]

I could read an adventure in to this poem
and into this girl, but isn`t that what poetry
is about ?
I hesitate to speak out loud of the thoughts
triggered by this poem, so I will just think
about it and smile a wide happy smile.
Thank you for making my day,

----Eagle Cruagh

[Dez H.]

I love this one. I just read it and it reminds me of some s**t i'm going through now. You are great with your words whether you just throw them out there or take your time with them. Good s**t ms lady. I'm still a fan.

[Allie]

I understand this completely. You nailed it on the head with this one.