My muse

My muse, the empress to my kingdom
The devil to my hell
You elevate me to the highest of high
You drag me to the lowest of lows

I found myself with only thoughts of you
Didn't notice until I couldn't get you out of my mind
Caught and trapped in this prison that I found myself in
No escape, but not looking for one

My muse, you are the light which shines to reveal my creativity
Inspiration, for when I am lost in what to say
The demon who tricks me into agony
Still, it bring me closer to express what I am

Happiness, when we exchange word, sweetly
Anguish, when I hear no response to my words, coldly
Words, can't fathom to manifest what I feel in me, lost
Frustration, when you don't believe in me and my actions, despair

Eyes swell up but no water comes down
For these moments, I allow no one to see not even you my muse
For These tears will shed no relieve for me,
These tears will only etch you stronger inside me

Wait for me, time, so I can slow-down these moments of ecstasy and bliss
And fast-forward, these moments of misery and woe
My muse, I can no longer do this, for everyday I feel like i die
But, I could never leave you, so I welcome death