Day 6

Lest this new start approach...

People  have proven to me again that they can not be trusted and frankly I'm sick and tired of it. No longer shall I rely on anyone. I'm sick of it. To move I still need another to split the costs to live but now I think I may just attempt to soldier alone as I have always done. When you have no one and nothing to lose its easy to attempt to risk what you have left (if there is any such thing). But now all I have are a handful of friends and people who are liars and hiding behind a motive. I can't be bothered with it anymore.

A friend of mine is leaving (its best they leave to Denmark because to be quite honest I don't think they are mentally stable) but I don't want to. Feelings I have harbored for them won't seem to go away and I want to let go. It has been festering for a long time and I'm sick of it now. I want to move on from them.

I want to start it all again. Break down who I am and rebuild from the start. Live a few weeks in solitude and have a fresh start because too much is getting in my way and the main thing is my naivety and generosity. People use and abuse my kindness. Well I guess its time I started being cruel to those who really deserve it...