I Don't Understand

I feel butterflies flying around my stomach...

Why are they there?

 

I always find my eyes looking your way...

Why can't I look away?

 

I can't stop smiling when you smile at me once...

Why can't I stop smiling?

 

I want to feel your arms hug around me and comfort me at my lowest...

Why can't I let you go when you hug me?

 

I can't help but feel a burning sensation in my veins when I know I can't have you...

Why her?

 

I don't understand what is going on with!

Reviews

[Izabe143]

Jan have you fallin when I've fallin out

[Jan]

This guy is cool though!!! He's everything I look for!!!

Btw, how did it go with you and you-know-who?

[Izabe143]

It went fine but he cried which of course I did too because you have seen my emotional side. I just want to be friends but I think he hates me…😢

[Jan]

Awww!!! That's sad!!!

[Izabe143]

Ya. I just really feel bad about it were sort of friends but I don't know if he hates me.

[Jan]

I want to talk to him to ask him but, I don't think I can anyways. Don't worry! He doesn't hate you, he can't really. You two had been together for almost a year so he can't just throw away all those emotions for nothing

[Izabe143]

Acually 2 years and 2 months

[Jan]

DANG that's long HAH that's what she said

[Izabe143]

He's been a butthead thou and I hate it.

[Megan B.]

"Her"? Major confusion someone help

[Jan]

The guy I have a crush on, has a girlfriend ;-; That's why I said," Why her?"

[Megan B.]

AHHHHHH I gotcha bro

[Jan]

Lolz yeah, so how have you been?

[Megan B.]

Not bad. Better than I was, I've finally started making new friends.

[Jan]

Sweet, and I FOUND A "clone" OF MINE!!! My two friends, Karley and Garrett, introduced me to a girl, Sam, who looks like me! I've finally seen one of my many clones!!!

[Megan B.]

LOL you have so many clones

[Jan]

I always hear about them every school I go to

[Megan B.]

Ha, bro I like this kid in my human Geography class and guess what....HE IS TALLER THAN ME! Pretty freaking amazing right? Megan finally likes someone that is taller than her. Point one for Megan

[Izabe143]

There's some one taller than Megan! OMG! [giggles] I'm kidding at least you found someone you love and I lost mine…

[Megan B.]

Why?! what happened whose a*s do I have to kick?

[Izabe143]

Mine cause I broke up with him

[Megan B.]

Why? I thought you really liked him? what was his name again?

[Izabe143]

Tristan. But hints didnt seem right anymore and [tear rolls down cheek] I couldn't handle it anymore.

[Megan B.]

Oh sorry I thought that I was talking to Janestin. Why couldn't you handle it? Tristan is a great guy. teenagers today mistake the fact that just nothing exciting is happening in the relationship that interest is lost. That isn't the case. Do you still love him?

[Izabe143]

Ya. But it's just to much to handle with my dad gone having to help my mom while he's deployed.

[Megan B.]

I gotcha. I can see how that would be difficult. Maybe I am just inexperienced with relationships but if you were having a hard time, wouldn't you want someone to be there for you? Plus making out I heard was pretty freaking awesome

[Izabe143]

[fakes a laugh] Megan I get were your coming from that I need someone's shoulder to cry on. But I have kaylin, Dylan, (crush#1) Chris, and two others. Remeber all thoses friends I had. Their all gone they left me because what I did and I still have support but I really feel all I have is kaylin. [ tear rolls down cheek] I'm lost and I don't know what to do.

[Jan]

Girl, pick yourself back up. Sorry If I sound rude or something but being single isn't that bad. Plus, you need to learn how to rely on yourself rather then others because people don't make it throught thisnworkd just by leaning on someone. Theres always going to be heartbreaks, heartaches, heart whatevers but we need to learn how to look past them and say," This is only bringing me on step closer to my fate." Because each of these things are a test to see how you deal with them

[Jan]

*this world

Sorry stupid phone jacking up my stuff

[Izabe143]

I don't know jan… I got too used to ya'll bein there for me. I feel lost.

[Megan B.]

I'm sorry, I have to agree with Janestin on this one Bella. * takes hat off and tips it at janestin* good one. Bella I hear what you are saying and trust me I have been there. But Jan is telling the truth. You can't rely on people like you do. You may have become accustomed to having a huge support group behind you but once you get into the real world you are on your own. It is a hard truth that we all have to come to terms with. And hey *busts into spontaneous song* WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER STAND A LITTLE TALLER DOESNT MEAN IM LONELY WHEN I'M ALONE!!!

[Izabe143]

I'll try… it's just I have kaylin and Dylan only anymore and I don't try to lean on them. I've tryed to go through this on my own. I'm still gonna ask ya'll for advice cause really besides kaylin and Dylan, ya'll are all I really have. Hazel, jan, Megan, and Kadessa. I miss y'all so much…

[Jan]

Yeah. Dude because my first day of school at my new school. I had no one, I was alone... but now I kniw a bunch of people because I stod up and said,"I'm not going to let this happen" and thank you Megan *chuckles and bows*

[Izabe143]

[sticks toung out at jan] I'm not as strong as ya'll think I'm not hat girl much anymore. I've-I've changed.

[Jan]

So have I {sticks my tongue back out at you} I've felt how its like to be alone with no one to stand by while losing a bunch of my sanity

[Izabe143]

I only have about three friends anymore.

[Megan B.]

Sometimes you only need three. It is ok for you to still ask us for advice. WE LOVE YOU! And personally I think you are stronger than you think. It is ok to lean on people but I have learned that you can't depend on them.

[Izabe143]

Megan. Jan. even with thoses three I feel myself falling apart Tristan and I got in an argument and he called me not so nice things and I did the same to him. I just don't ungersatnd him anymore it's like he's making every thing worse.

[Jan]

Just surpris the crap out of him by ignoring him or being super nice

[Izabe143]

I got a note from him I'll message u a part that scared me.

[Izabe143]

Plus that won't help with what's going on right now…

[Jan]

What the... Bella you need to take action. I'm dead serious, if you don't I will and I will get his brother involved

[Izabe143]

I'm already talking to Jared about it I got everything undercontrol on this part.

[Jan]

Jeez, I need to smack some sense into people. Why the heck is he dwelling on this? Its not like your going to be his last and he's not going to be your last

[Izabe143]

Remember he's over dramatic.

[Megan B.]

Both him and Jared told me today that he was over you. so I think you need to move on as well

[Izabe143]

I'm over him.
He a ******* jerk.
I don't love him anymore.
I DON'T NEED A MAN I AM STRONG WITHOUT ONE!!

[Megan B.]

That's right! BOOYAH

[Izabe143]

Thanks Chicas! This really helped and I now that I read it I see how pathetic I was😝❤

[Jan]

Lolz being single is awesome! We get to flirt like there's no tomorrow!

[Izabe143]

I know that's what I've been doing😝. LOL

[Jan]

Lolz good!!!

[Kadessa (Kaddy)]

Omg! Is someone crushing????

[Jan]

*super blush* >//////< D-D-D-ummmm n-no!!! *looks away* What are you talking about!?! Psh!

[Gina]

Lies! Lies! She's head over heels! (Trust me, I know the symptoms very well)

[Jan]

What does thou speak of!? I have no clue!!! *hiding my face*

[Gina]

Awww, she's in looooooveee