Just give me the razor to cut away this anguish in my chest

A Poem by Kyrsha<3

Mom put donw my dog..whille i was away in colorado

I'm in the shower..
The waters pelting my hair and my back.
I'm nursing my external wounds.... The ones inside wont heal no matter what I do or say...
I want to disappear. I want to hide in my desperate fear.
I cant seem to do anything right. I feel like...maybe I should give up this fight..?
As I look down at the water trailing down my arms. It resembles blood.
I can tell its raining outside...Even though I have the music blaring..
The only thing blaring in my head is silence. . And the words of defeat...
I'm no longer strong. I cannot keep up this facade.
I'm weak and my feeble heart is drowning in all this madness and betrayel.
Taking my finger nails, I drag them across my skin, digging them in deep.
Hoping the sharp pain in my arm will tear my thoughts away from your creeping deaths embrace.
I've lost my greatest ally, my deepest bond. I had hoped I wouldn't have to ever hear that "so Long".
You were taken from me by mother and her anger.
Its just not fair. I got you put down, at least you are no longer in danger.
Why couldn't she take me to be put down, to take this anguish in my heart and cut it out.
I shall love you forever and no one shall ever take your place. You will always own my heart...My dearly beloved Sampson..