Me?

I pushed you away again today.

There's nothing I can do or say

Its always wrong, Its always destroying

I'm in agony, please I'm adoring

I hate myself, I hate my life,

Everything is just strife.

Nothing goes right, I f**k it up

I'm just a bluff

I act happy, I smile, I laugh

I'M DYING I'M CRYING I'M SCREAMING FOR HELP!

I cut myself, I lie to myself, I say I'm not good enough!

Baby I can't love you no matter how hard i try!.. and even that's a lie.

I love you I do. But I'm afraid to loose you.

That fear is so real, It's so abundant in my life.

I cant fight. I can't lie. I can't die.

I'm so weak I'm so afraid, I'm so dead.

I wish I could open up my heart

I wish I could give you the dart.

Just aim it high and hit it in the middle.

I try my hardest, I gave it my all. I failed it all from the start.

I can't  keep it up, I'm just  so fucked up.

My life is a joke, I'm just a little girl whose lost.

I hate my life, I wish for a gun.

I can't kill myself because my friends need me.

I'm only alive to be a sacrifice to their pain and their needs

I Have so much hate, I have so much love. I have so much pain that it must be a bad gift from above.

I'm left I'm right. I'm black I'm white. I don't know who I am anymore.

You tell me its my choice. Your wrong its theirs.

They've picked my path and its self destroying.

I cant keep roving i need a home. But my homes been destroyed long ago.

I miss my dog dearly, I'd give anything to be with him. I'd give my life for one last chance to say goodbye.

I'd die for my friends. I'd give them all I have and ask nothing in return.

And so...