Sampson

I lost my dog a few months ago nd my throat still tightens in agony. After a dew days of silence on my part I wrote this..

Simple thoughts of u. Simple thoughts of us together every day.
I don't know what to do so I pray.
But no one is listening.
This pain is far to great..
The world is spinning.
But I am stuck in this frozen world your absence has banished me to.
I feel so lost and my heart is starting to shatter and die. I really can't lie.
My steps are faltering, my heart is slamming against my chest to hard and to fast.
Past is past... No it's not!
You were all I got! Now ur in a grave. My heart and soul that were u are rotting.
I try to feel your soft and protective presence. But your death is all I get. I tell myself that when I go to sleep and wake up it'll be all over, I lie to myself...
Saying,"It's all a dream," but when I wake up I wanna curse and scream! I beat and scream at this so called loving God and tell him he can go to hell for all I care!
I'm through!
I want to run away far far away!
I wish I had never gotten into this fray!
I wish I could have gotten to hold u one last time... That your life wasn't wasted like the flip of a dime.
This has to be my greatest crime.
But all I can do is rhyme. 
The worst part of this whole thing, is that no matter the facts that are presented to me...
I still hope against all the odds that u are alive and missing me as much as I'm missing you. We're worlds apart but our minds r one and the same