An evil beginning, a loving end

This is my evil testimony that has a very unexpected surprise at the end. I sold my soul to Satan, and got everything I wanted, power, money wealth.

This is my testimony 

 

She was my best friend. I have never loved somebody more. I was introduced to a drug called methamphetamine by a friend named Garret. I had done meth before, but why I say I was indroduced, was because he introduced me to the drug in a way that was potent beyond beliefe. Shooting.

I introduced it to her. Me, Garret, and Cass did it together one day. But  I'm not going into that story.

The next night cass had the Emt called on her, her blood pressure was 90/0, She should have been dead that night. But we were lucky we had the Emt called for her. The bad news dosn't stop there. She was on probation. And her mother was now fully aware that she used, but not with me. I waited in the hospital with her for hours hoping she was going to be okay. But selfishly I was more concerned about her going away for a very long time. 

She was discharged after a good 5 or 6 hours in the waiting room. It wasn't a supprise that she was okay because the Emt assured me that she was going to be in the beggining. 

 

It was a long ride home from the hospital knowing her probation officer was going to be there later in the afternoon to pry her away from me. I hated the thought. We arrived and the first thing I could think of out of desperation was something that somebody had told me once before.

"It's as simple as thinking about the agreement, you will get everything you could ever desire." It hit me. I had one idea that could possibly work. Or possibly not.

I grabbed a piece of paper and began to write "I Kyle Borowski, Hereby sell my body and soul to satan himself. I wish for Power, Women, And Wealth." Along side with a signature of my innitials. That was done. I grabbed a knife, and lacerated my palm very deep, then smeared the blood on the agreement. I showed this to cassidy and let her know. "Cass I dont want you to go today, im willing to give up my soul for you."  I was feeling confident.

I folded the note. Went outside and set fire to it. It was done.

 

Her officer came later that day, I was unaware if this was still going to work, but I forced confidence into my mind.

I sat in the group meeting alongside with the mother of cassidy and cass herself. 

The officer then asked how she was doing, and She replied "Not good" My heart dropped as her mother shouted "She used meth!". I knew it would come to this point eventually. Prepared for a negative reaction from the officer, I was shocked. "Okay, now lets talk about this and how we can avoid this for the future" I though coincidence. They weren't even going to take her away! I forgot about the deal I had made, I was so relieved! I didin't think the deal was made, but I needed something to give me confidence.

 

Days after I was still in anticipation mode to see if this would work, from the hope of the first lucky situation not being just "Luck". The 4th day came, a few things started going my way, but still I was in denile. The 5th day came and I started using meth allot. Shooting meth. I didint crave the high at all. I craved the smarts. It's almost as if it gave me supergenius abilities, thats what I loved. On the 7th day of shooting, I overdosed beyond life.I injected 50cc's of soggy water full of meth and in my delusional mind at the moment, that was okay but upon injection my body stroked and froze up, I was blind for what seemed 3 seconds after I felt the electric shock in the center of my brain, then I could see again I thought I was dead, I should have died. But afterwards is when the deal hit me. I was done with drugs. I came so close to death that it opened me up just a little bit. And those smarts I achieved while using. Stayed. I didin't need drugs. I constantly felt like I was on them. My social skills were imaculent. I knew everyway arround somebodys mind. I got what I wanted. My charismatic skills could get anybody to kill themselves. Then I realized. The deal had worked. The world was my playground.

 

I did research to why I was so speedy with my mental activity. The overdose. I have manic bi polar type 2. The overdose turned my mind into a blessing. "Hypomania" There is an actual quote quoting "Blessed are the hypomanic" And it is very much true. Constant euphoria, rapid and creative thoughts, hyperactivity "I was always hyper" Thats not the half of the benefits to hypomania, just a Hint. 

 

I was in the grasp of Satan. My intentions were cruel, and people knew this. I was planning on reaping in hell along side with him. At least this thought kept me from thinking about burning for all of eternity. My intentions on Earth weren't to kind as well. I had a great plan for satan, the best. I had a plan to get others to sell their souls along side with me. And captured them by implanting a seed into their head about the benefits of they selling you'r soul. Even if they disagreed the thought was there. In a desperate time in my life I remembered what that man had told me. I never thought I would end up selling my soul, but I did. The seed sprouted. And became a tree in my mind. This was the teqnique I was using on others, and it worked. 

 

Being around my friends helped me in my journey. They mentioned since I was so close to death, it could have opened up my "Third eye". I have heard of this before. And it interested me extreamly. apon research, I found everything linking with the third eye perfectly similar to what I was able to do. Especially along side my hypomania.

I also saw in the research that My Third eye was just one link of energy out of seven. And the 7 main links of energy are called chakras. The most important Chakra is the crown chakra. And mine was Glowing "Still is" There are 40 other points of energy such in your hands or feet which aren't as important. And over 100,000 throughout the body. 

After quite a bit of research, I realized something amazing with my deal has happened to me. My Crown Chakra, is a halo. In the shape of one in energy form. And that allows me to access any chakra I put my focus on to. I tried this. With piano. I couldn't quite get a part. At all. I thought very hard about my fingers and the way the song was supposed to be played. I nailed it. This was unbelievable. But this ment more for satan. After all he gave me these abilitys, Did he?

 

I was set that Satan was my God, my higher power. He gave me these abilitys, so I was caught.

 

I mentioned to my friend about my plan to use my kindness to capture people in, And use my evil after I had their trust. 

"Killing with kindness" And he gave me an idea and that changed everything. I don't know how I could just out of nowhere believe in something so much, to erasing it from my memory. Satan was about to be no more to me. No longer my master. My friend said "Why don't you just use your kindness, for good." That captured me. I loved the though so much. This is where I was  no longer sold. I was just highly spiritually inclined, and focused on nothing but good and my chakras. This was a great feeling, The best. But the best feeling had yet to proceed me.

 

Satan was still existant after I left him "still is". He hated me with a passion"Hates me". Pulled on my kindness and gave me delusional thoughts. This is why I sounded crazy before to people. And still might sound crazy to some. I experimented more with this and came closer and closer to the truth. While at work, I was listening to creed on creed radio on pandora. The songs were all matching excatly to how I felt or felt about someone and it was getting emotional. 

And then it happened...

The song "God of wonders" Came on "creed" radio. I threw my hands up in the most emotional moment of my life and started to worship him like never before. I prayed, I asked for forgivness. This was the most enlightening moment I have ever experienced in my entire life. GOD had entered me. He was the one who saved me all along. Who gave me the encouragement to write all of this. God is oh so very real everybody. 

 

It wasn't just spirituality anymore. It was God, if you want to call that spirituality then go for it. But I had alot of questions for him and satan was making it seem that I was forseeing the future, and that I knew everything. Which I obviously didin't. Major delusions. And mind you I hadn't used meth for over 2 months to this point, Not even my perscribed "ridalin". He made me think God was talking through me, and that I was the Messiah himself. This landed me in the Loma linda behavioral center. "Crazy ward" While there I met a man named Micheal. He first told me he had a dream last night that I was coming and the lord told him this. He was my guide in there. I stayed for 2 and a half weeks and learned alot. In that time my prayers were coming true. I didin't need to see God in order to make me believe. He is EVERYWHERE, And EVERTHING. He comforts me when I'm down, He heals me when I'm Broken. He is my refuge. 

In Loma linda, Micheal talked to me about alot, the wisdom about how to act as an adult. Hints and tips. He was very wise. After my stay, I no longer had delusional thoughts. I was ready for the world, and God was going to help me.

 

Out side of being entrapped for 2 and a half weeks it got harder and harder. Satan was tugging on my faith more than ever. "He's not real" "You wont go anywhere when you die" Are the thoughts I was having. Those were his. I didn't feel like praying, I didin't want to do anything that had to do with God, but then I had a sudden urge To write down a prayer. I did but at times I wanted to stop. I didin't, I continued until I finished and I messed it up alot but I had corrected it. I never felt like not doing something more but I did, I finished the prayer desperate to believe again. I fell asleep after that. I woke up Full of SPIRIT. I couldn't have believed more. And from that point on I have continued to spread my peace. I live to be as much like Jesus as possible. I spread my peace and let the holy spirit guide me.

 

I used to hate God, I cursed at him I blamed him for everything.

But let me tell you. If you have ever once prayed in your life for something and you were not answered. You probably didint believe to who you were praying to, like me. And if you believe like me now, and he does not answer you! HE has a plan better in the future for you!!! You don't question him! He works in mysterious ways!

 

Now once you get to this. If you are not convinced. Be good to people. And love your neighbor as yourself. love yourself. Do not hate. Only love. Like me. You will benefit, ENTERNALY.

Author's Note

This is from who I was, to who am am now.