What's wrong with me?!?!

This is a broken hearted girl part 2

Im still misserable!
I can't take him out of my mind, whats wrong with me?!?! I found out he left me for someone else, i wrote to that woman i asked her to not take away someone i love and she told me she never heard about me from her new bf. They started 2 months ago.
After i message the new gf, my x unblock me and said a rude words to me. He's totally changed now, we were lover and best friends we can talk about everything before and so much understanding and love, now everything suddenly changed hes not the person i knew anymore.
Im asked the reason why he left me, he told me it because some other things but i know it because he fall for that woman.
I can't even move on and feels better even i know hes really an a*****e and betrayer, he don't deserve true love. Everyone will say im silly to still care about him, hes really not worthed i know but i can't stop this feelings..im destroyed, i wondering and still can't believe why this happening because i trust him with all my life every promises he said.
I prayed everynight telling God i love him. This is crazy to still love someone like that its unworthed but people who ever really loved someone and fails will know how i feel, not easy just forget and move on after 7 years in love and never a second stop loving him not even can hate doesn't matter what he had done to ruin my life. God help me!