Her smile

12/20/2012

It's hard.

Knowing that I might wake up tomorrow,

Or any of these coming days

Without my mom is really hard.

 

It’s the holiday season.

Christmas is going to suck.

I'm honestly dreading waking up and not being able to run to her room

And see her smile as she rolls over to say, “Good morning and Merry Christmas, Matthew!”

And then spending Christmas morning together as a family.

I'm scared that I won't ever be able to do that again.

 

I have never been this scared in my entire life.

 

She smiled at me when I walked into the hospital room today.

It was the first time I've seen her smile in a month almost.

It was hardly a smile.

And it caused her to wince.

But I still saw a little bit of happiness.

 

How does a boy come to terms with the fact that his mom might die?

I don't know.

I guess I'll just keep telling myself she's gonna be okay

And try to go on one more day.

Reviews

[Nathan Mann]

I have developed new feelings.
they suck in a good way.

[Kupendwa]

I'm glad I can help you feel in new ways.

[Fish]

This is really powerful... and sad :/
A beautiful poem though,
I don't know what's going on in your life but I'll be praying Kupe.

[Kupendwa]

Thank you Fish. I guess you could say life decided to punch me in the face recently. Thank you for the prayer.

[Miss. McPherson]

Excellent, defiantly shows the thoughts going through someone's mind when a loved one is dieing.

[Kupendwa]

Thanks for your review!