Phantom Pain

Raging fire Pierce the hull Glazed over eyes

You cannot reach my skull

Hollowed out yet I feel full

It’s a pain you cannot feel

It’s the feeling of absence

there’s just Nothing There

imagine what it is like to not have your arm

Imagine not being able to wiggle your fingers

or turn your wrist

you just

don’t

have an arm

Phantom Pain is what it’s called

When everything is dull and they still outshine you

Thinking back, everything reminds you

That you suck, you’re terrible and can’t do anything right

You’re dumb, you’re corrigible, and waste all your nights

Doing work when it never gets seen

You might as well have written in invisible ink

20 years and what do you have to show for it?

Why are you not famous yet?

Why aren’t you popular?

Why don’t you have any friends?

People disrespect you and it never seems to end

Don’t want to die, but I’m sick of playing pretend

Like i care and it matters and I want to see it out

What’s the point? what’s it all about

Is there really that little that’s stopping me?

Why can’t someone say, “good job” or “nice one” or “I’m proud of you, son”

Drawing lines between the nerves I cannot be outdone

Cause I’m better and I’m smarter and I’m special

Reviews

[Vertigo Cat1111]

This was such an entertaining read, and I can tell you really put your all, and all of your emotions into it. When everything is dull and they still outshine you

'Thinking back, everything reminds you
That you suck, you’re terrible and can’t do anything right
You’re dumb, you’re corrigible, and waste all your nights
Doing work when it never gets seen
You might as well have written in invisible ink'

This line was so painfully true. It does feel like that doesn't it? We can put so, so much endless blood, sweat, and tears in our work, and no one sees it. The rhymes are wonderful too. Your words bring every emotion on the page to life. I really hope you keep writing and I wanna write more too now, because I relate far too much to wanting to be seen, but having to wait constantly. I hope you know though, that I saw this poem, and I loved it. (:

[Kuo Yisheng]

Seeing your review makes it all worthwhile, especially seeing that you want to write more. It means more than you know. I am content inspiring at least one person. Thank you and I wish you the best of luck

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I wish you the best of luck too, and it was truly my pleasure reading it.