Confusion

& how did I end up here alone
He comes he stays he goes 
Leaving me wanting his presence again 
Is it true? Maybe I am in love 
Feelings I never felt come about when he is near 
I look at him hoping to see the same 
Feel the same
But, I feel nothing 
This s**t got me confused 
I'm use to running things 
Always knowing what's gonna happen next 
But now I don't 
I feel as if I'm chasing him
& not being chased 
No boy has ever had me like this 
Maybe because he is in fact a MAN
Am I wrong that I wanna do everything in any possible way to make him happy? 
We laugh, we joke, we play
We both want something more
But neither not wanting to make the first move 
We both been hurt before & don't wanna visit that state of mind again 
So as always 
He comes he stays he goes
Returning always to light the fire to my love