Monster Inside Of Me

I fight with bipolar, and it constantly feels like a monster. Definitely not THIS monster, but a monster. This is based off of my struggles. My original was much MUCH more intense, but it got deleted while I was in the shower (damn computer)

I kiss you but

it tells me to kill

but I won't listen!

I still have free will!

 

I place my hands on your hips,

I know how you like that.

You kiss me on the cheek

because I know how you love that.

 

You say that you love me,

and I know that you do,

but the monster inside of me,

won't let me say it too.

 

You don't know the battles

that I fight for you.

The damn monster inside of me

won't let me stay true.

 

Yuor lips and hips against mine,

my monster starts to roar.

He's forcing me to kill you,

he says you're just a filthy w***e.

 

I try to stop him,

and I try to fight!

he takes over,

he takes my rights.

 

When I wake up,

you're just a pile of meat.

I can't beieve I loved you,

and he couldn't even be neat.

 

I fall to my knees

Your name I start to cry.

But I know that it's no use.

Because you have already died.

Reviews

[cest la vie]

This is such a raw, intense write. The inner struggles you deal with..battles of love vs. hate.. I was very touched by this writing and could almost feel your pain and fear. Remember that love WILL always win... Keep writing these powerful writes to give a voice to your emotions. This is a most outstanding, brutally honest write.

Peace,
Lynne