Pain

I've been hurt to many times to care about pain. I used to wonder about life, was it worth it to stay alive? But I think that if I was faced with a choice to live or die, I don't want to live. Nothing keeps me here anymore. I've lost everything already, why not loose my life too. I question my sanity, I question people's ability to care. I'm no one, so why should you care. It's not like anyone's going to notice if I'm gone. No one notices me anyway. I'm a nobody in a world where everyone is trying to be somebody.
Pain is only pain, after a while it goes away. It may hurt for a while, sometimes even years, but once you find something or someone to fix you, the pain seems bearable. Everyone's broken, even if you push the pain so far away, and never say anything about it, it's still there. Pain is a feeling, but to some people, it means more.
To me, pain can't be defined by the amount of hurt you experience. It's like having to see something everyday that kills you inside, but you still have to deal with it. It's always there, it doesn't go away. I'm hoping that the military will give me a seance of purpose. Help me find something I'm good at. I'm not really good at anything. I only write because someone told me I was good, but everyone is good at writing.
No one cares about me, no one notices how much pain I'm in. No one cares, so I don't tell them. I wonder what people think of me, if they notice how much it hurts to live. I want live, but it gets harder everyday. With friends and family, what more could I ask for.
I live everyday, everyone does. But not everyone wants to die every second of everyday. That's me.
I've always had this pain in the back of my head, someday it will drive me crazy. Just not anytime soon.

Reviews

[chaotic katie]

I've felt everything mentioned in this piece all too often. i love the way you worded this piece, its not just words on a screen, you put sincere emotion into it, great job!