The Weight of a Smile

Most times I hide away my true emotions in order to protect myself from others caring too much. I believe it may be of fear of actually fitting in. having friends carry with it great responsibilities.

The Weight of a Smile

Another sleepless night

My circadian cycle of empty thoughts

Hibernating on vital ambitions

Mindful insights self indulge

 

I lay dormant in full awareness

Life filled with surreal yearnings

 Shredded by the teeth of my own capacity

Full torque, while remaining static

 

Repressive depression contracts my facial nerves

Overturning the gravitational pull of my aspect

Falsifying the objective persona

Coercing your desire to question

 

Solitary by choice

Personal connections to subjectify emotions

Transient delight parading through

Rapid euphoria, prolonged despair

 

Repetitively I bring about

This intense feeling of self-doubt

Impersonating what I wish others to see

There will come a day when I’ll be free

 

Transmitters unable to reach the synapse

No nerve impulse, brings my collapse

I feel the energy burning within

 

I must endure

I must progress

 

To alter your thoughts

You must revolutionize your perspective

 

A smile weighs less than a frown 

Reviews

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

I know the feeling. Sometimes it is difficult to open up for people, afraid to be hurt or to hurt people. But I think we have to try. There'll always be bad reactions, but we have to pull ourselves up on the good ones. And as you say in the last line of your poem... A smile weighs less than a scowl. Very good conclusion. :) Rudi