Agony

 

Silently crawling into bed, the cold greets me as a lover would

Curling in on myself, the tears flow so freely

This is my dying anthem, the play I'll act for years to come

The reminder that I wasn't what you wanted

Just a piece of your past, unimportant enough not to be remembered

Thinking about it only breaks me further

Soon only shattered pieces will remain,

Staring up at the moon, praying for some form of hope

When the ache of sleep finally ensues, I'll only be haunted further

You live in my dreams, and all that I did for you

Almost as painful as waking and knowing

The shards that I've become will only cut me deeper

Wishing you would hold me once more, knowing you'll only push me away

Someday I'll heal, someday I'll be able to look back and smile

It's what I tell myself, the only reason I make it through the day

My resolve is fading slowly though, I'm not sure I believe

My mind is telling me you'll only tear me down

In my heart I feel things will never be the same

But my remaining stubborn nature won't let me leave
Agony all over again.

 

Author's Note

I don't really care for the last line, but I wasn't quite sure how to end this. Let's just consider it a work in progress.

Reviews

[Barbara Walker]

This is so descriptive of how many of us feel after a break up."The shards that I've become, only cutting me deeper". Love that line! I would suggest that in the next to last line, leave out the word "remaining". For the ending maybe something to the effect that you keep going over it in your mind, again and again? This is very good and with a little work, it could be great! Barbara

[Justin]

I really liked that. You conveyed the desperation and pain being felt in a very gloomy and fitting way. Great job.

[The Autumn Faerie]

I know I've read this. lol.
And I know I've reviewed this...
But I felt the need to announce:
I'm still there.

=/

[Dawn Jones]

I love it. So dark... so deep... so very me. I like what you write. We have a very similar style.

[Morgan Ashire]

If only the world knew how much truth these words held.
I've said it many a time before and I'll say it again.
"Love is both the most powerful healer and the most potent toxin."

[The Autumn Faerie]

Ah, yes.
I, too, have been there.
Not fun.
No, not a all...

[Cylis Derrens]

Love the imagery of sadness. You can almost picture it in your mind, feeling what the speaker feels and remembering my own times of great loss.