Lonely Bedroom

Your silence speaks volumes until my ears bleed

I wish you could use words instead of actions, this I plead

You dress up, you leave without a word to me

You live in the street leaving loneliness sorrounding me

Do you even think of me once you step out of the door?

Do I cross your mind at all when you're buying drinks for that w***e?

I say, I want to talk, you just say forget it

I don't want to hate you, but I feel it, yeah I said it.

Does it even seem surprising? I'm sure you hated me first.

I just wanna talk, not argue fight and curse

I'm not innocent in this, that's not the picture I'm trying to paint

We've both done our share of wrongs, I'm not saying that it's right, because it aint

So where do we go from here? What's the next step?

It seems like the obvious answer is the one we've always secretly kept

7 years and 2 kids, saying goodbye just can't feel right

At the same time I wish we'd just fight

The silent treatments and games got me crazy in the head

Staying together for the kids isn't healthy either, from what I've read

Who's to say what's right and what's wrong in the game of love?

Then I also fear the judgement of the man above

So I just keep doing what I've been doing and keep my head, heart and mouth hushed?

I know you have your spin on things too, will our memories be flushed?

Reviews

[David Lewis Paget]

Very well put, with rhyme and meter too which adds to the intensity of your feelings. A sad but common malaise today, with people unable to commit to each other for any period. The children make it worse; and as they say, the seven year itch seems to be a time of disaffection. I hate to say it, but show him the door...

[Michael G. Smith]

I've found in life happiness and love never settle for what we don't deserve. Many tears and loneliness before I told myself no more and started loving myself to the fullest that meant living the way Christ wanted me too free from addiction and sex outside of marriage. Now, I am more happier everyday with my second wife. So this piece hits home with me. I was that jerk of a husband.

[Chris]

You've spoken many things aloud into others' silences... you paid your 'dues' a midnight at a time as your own crowded close

[KristynRuth]

Wow. I like the way you said that :)

[Persephone]

I love this!What an awesome expression of so many of the feelings that come up in this kind of situation- there is so much to consider, divorce is never an easy decision - Wonderful writing and emotion in this piece, great job!

[KristynRuth]

Thank you so much!