Ray's Song

A Poem by Krista Weiss

My Uncle Ray passed away on July 16, 2012 and this is the song I wrote for him <3 Rest in peace Uncle Ray <3 The hidden message is: You're watching us from up in Heaven <3

Ray's Song

I heard my momma screaming,

On that July 16th,

I ran upstairs to see what was wrong,

That's when she broke the news to me,

She said there was an accident,

That you had passed away,

I broke down in tears,

Thought this couldn't be real,

And I couldn't help but think,

What it'd be like if you were alive today

You coulda turned your life around,

Undid the mistakes you made,

You coulda seen Renee and Gina,

After so many years,

But at least you got to talk to them again,

Before that painful day,

You coulda accomplished things,

You never thought you would,

You'd still be alive just like you should

Well if it wasn't bad enough,

Your son was there that day,

When he saw you fall,

He reached out his hand,

And you reached right out back,

But he didn't make it to you in time,

Saw you hit the ground,

Saw you take your very last breath,

And I couldn't help but imagine,

If only Nicky had caught him

You coulda turned you life around,

Undid the mistakes you made,

You coulda played with little Nicky,

For one last time,

He was still so young,

Still had two years till nine,

You coulda accomplished things,

You never thought you would,

You'd still be alive just like you should

Now I must admit,

You weren't the best at time,

You had your problems,

Like every person does,

But you loved your family,

More than anything in the wold,

But too bad you didn't make it,

Before you got a chance to see your girls

You could've turned your life around,

Undid the mistakes you made,

You could've told everyone you loved them,

Could've given everyone a hug,

If only you had thought to yourself,

To put that harness on,

You could have accomplished things,

You never thought you would,

You'd still be alive just like you should

I heard my momma screaming,

On that July 16th,

I ran upstairs to see what was wrong,

That's when she broke the news to me

© 2012 Krista Weiss

Author's Note

So I hope you liked it! I know it's not that great of a song but it really means a lot to me. Each time I see it I can't help crying :'( <3 Anyways ya :/ here's the story behind it. I had most of this on my other song called Baby I Want You Back so you if you saw that you might have heard this before but oh well. Okay so here's the story from the begining. My Uncle Ray got married and they had kids. They had two girls Renee and Gina. And growing up me and Gina were like best friends because we were around the same age and we always play together. But my uncle had a drinking problem and him and his wife got a divorce. She made up lies about him saying that he was abusing his kids so that he couldn't see them anymore. They eventually moved away but they would never tell us where they lived. We always wrote them letters, but they would never respond. So we basically haven't got to see them ever since I was around 5 years old. Luck for us though, we were able to find them on Facebook last year. My sister and Renee started talking and everything and we all became friends with Renee. Then we started trying to become friends with Gina, but she wanted nothing to do with us. We would try messaging her to ask her how she was doing, but she would just tell us to leave her alone. And every time she said that, it would just absolutely break my heart. A couple of months later, she added me. I was at my friends house and it was like 2 am but I start jumping up and screaming because I was just so happy that I would finally be able to talk to her again. Both Renee and Gina started talking to their dad again. And my uncle had another kid with his girlfriend and the named him Nicky, and they wanted to meet their brother. However their mom said that they could only see Nicky if it was just my family. She said my Uncle couldn't be there. We said we couldn't, because if my Uncle Ray new that Nicky got to see Renee and Gina and he couldn't it would kill him. So we said that they could come over to our house to swim and stuff and we'd have Nicky and Ray there and everything could be civil. But again their mom refused and we never really talked about it again. Then, on July 16th, my Uncle was at work and had Nicky with him. He's an electrician and he was on this thing called a boom lift and got jolted out of the lift from 40 feet in the air. My Unlce Ray didn't think to put his harness on because he was only going up to take a quick measurement but something went wrong with the lift and it jolted him off of the lift. Nicky saw the whole thing happen and tried to save him. When we were talking about it after with Nicky, he told us that he saw him fall, and that he reached out his hands to catch him, and my Uncle tried to reach back to him, but Nicky didn't make it over to him in time. He said that he saw his daddy hit the ground and he thought he was dead but he saw him breathing and he knew he would be okay. However my Uncle was declared dead on the scene. The breath that Nicky saw him take was his last breath. Everything got messed up and they couldn't figure out a way to contact us. The police showed up at his house and they talked to his neighbors about everything and they gave the police the number of his best friend. They called him, then he called my grandpa, who called my mom. When she got the call I was half asleep and playing games on my iPod. Suddenly I heard my mom hysterically screaming my name so I immediately hurried upstairs to see what was wrong. This was the perfect case of telephone because my mom new that he passed away, but what she heard was that he was in a car accident. She ran over to my grandpa's to make sure he was okay and left me home alone. I spent hours of searching for car accidents online to see if there was information on what happened to my Uncle. We were so confused because Ray wasn't allowed to drive. He got his license taken away years ago from a DUI so we didn't know what happened. Eventually we learned the whole story and we had to tell Renee and Gina. So the first time that my family got to see them in 7 or 8 years was at their father's funeral. That was the first time they ever got to see Nicky, too. But if their mother had only let them go see their dad and their little brother, everything could've been different. That couldn't have stopped what happened to my Uncle, but that wouldn't have had to be the first time we saw them. My uncle went to work that day to be able to pay their mothers all of the child support money that the were so greedy for. Now we get to see Renee and Gina again, because they live a couple of hours away, and their mom is letting us see them. So I mean it's great that we get to see them, but it's absolutely horrible why. If they only got to see their father one last time before he died, I know my Uncle would have died the happiest man in the world <3 Love you Uncle Ray <333