CURSED

First teenage love feelings

I’m not afraid
I’m not ashamed
I assumed my mistakes
Therefore I failed
To gain your respect
The one I don’t deserve

After all I ever did
To put you trough this
I thought it was you
But I was wrong
I’m all to blame
And I accept my curse

I never wanted to end up that way
And wish I could fly away
From hurt, from love, from this pain
My courage, my strength, left me to die
I don’t eat, sleep or think right
That is it, I’m done
No more trying, no more crying
There’s no need to 
You won’t come back

Jealousy kills me softly
But I guess you don’t notice
I bleed from the inside
As I drown in my tears
I scream
But my voice is weak
No one notice
Cause I seem at peace
I try to swim to the surface
But my past holds me back

There’s nothing to do
Nothing left
I’m out of control
Losing my mind
Cant help but thinking
That I was cursed by you
It follows me everywhere
I hide but I’m running out of air
Blame me

I should have known
I should have listened
I should have thought before…
Now it’s too late
I lost it all
Does it matters?
Who really cares?
People hate me
And I agree
Compassion? Pity?
I don’t want it
Wanna be able 
To forget about it
Wanna be able to start over
Make it right
For once, feel like I deserve it

Can’t you see I’m crashing down?
Details you don’t see
Do you even think I’m worth it?
Do you notice my hair?
The cologne I put on
The look in my eyes
Do you even care?
It doesn’t matter
Not anymore
The curse is there
It won’t back down
It’s in my soul
It’s in my life
It’s in my head
Don’t you realize?

I hate you
And the anger inside devours me
Therefore my love for you is the greatest
And can’t help but thinking that I lost it
Lost my power and my inner beauty
As darkness took me away
Danger carved in my forehead
The looks on people faces
As I walk through the door
Is nothing compared to yours
When you feel disgusted
Disgusted by me
By what I’ve done…

Can’t look at myself in the mirror
Cause all I see is black
Yes it does matter after all…
Cause you won’t come back
Yes I’m cursed
And I accept
Despite the pain
That kills me inside

By: Krisna Chatelain

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the honest tone and words in the poem. Allowed the reader to feel the regret and accept the ending for their action.
"Yes I’m cursed
And I accept"
Many kind of curses. Can be lost with good deed and action. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Chris]

A few word flaws but you have the emotional linkage and tone ...perfect