Stuck

The feeling of knowing where I am

The smiles that crossed my face were real

People trusted me, and I trusted them.

Looking up and seeing the bluest of skies. 

Going to the warm beaches with the most amazing waves. 

The friends that I know would never leave me. 

Never being the odd one out. 

Being around the people that love me most.

That's what I miss.

Now I'm here.

With no one to turn to, nowhere to go.

I feel lost.

Fake smiles are always there,

No one truly trusts me, and I can't trust them.

I can be abandoned at any moment,

These people judge me.

They see me as different, not like them.

I'm not part of their memories, their lives.

I don't mean a thing to them.

I'm stuck where I'm not wanted.

Away from the ones that truly love me and care for me.

I want them back, I want that life back.

But I'm here, all alone, lost with nowhere to go.

I guess I'm just stuck.