My Light

How I wish it were only a dream
Even now I still dream of you
I brush the dust off from old memories
Like returning home to retrieve a forgotten item

In the end, it was you who taught me that

some feelings of happiness can't be reclaimed
My dark, hidden past I dared not speak of

Without you, they would have remained forever dark
I know there is no way I could ever hurt you

More than I do now
 
Even the sadness from that day,
even the pain from that day

I loved it all, together with you
The bitter scent of lemons remained embedded in my heart
Can't make my way home til' the rain lets up
Even now you remain my light

In the darkness, I traced the outlines of your back
I remember it's contour so clearly
Every time I encounter something that's all too overwhelming 
It's the tears that won't stop overflowing

What were you doing, 
what were you watching?
Your face in profile, with a look I'd never seen
If you are out there somewhere now

Lost in the same tears, the same loneliness as I
Please, won't you just erase me from your memories 

This I pray for from the bottom of my heart
Even now you remain my light 

More than I knew
I was in love with you
Since then I can't
breathe easy

It seems so unreal
How you were always by my side back then
But I never will forget 
That is the certain truth

Even the sadness from that day,
even the pain from that day

I loved it all, together with you
The bitter scent of lemons remained embedded in my heart
Can't make my way home til' the rain lets up

Like a piece of sliced fruit
Even now you remain my light

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Wonderful use of words and thoughts.
"Like a piece of sliced fruit
Even now you remain my light"
I liked the complete poem. The above lines stood out for me. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Riddhi]

Heart touching poem..I loved the way you expressed yourself and I especially loved the title and your poem truly justified the title..I loved the way you still hold on hope..There were some lovely poetic lines in this poems which I just loved..
Keep on writing...

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

I am happy you liked the meaning of the poem!

[Island Hippy]

Aloha, I enjoyed this very much. Strong writing but expressed with a tenderness and melancholy that underpins the heart of what is is to hold on to something good, something hopeful! The atmosphere you create is tangible, the imagery is brilliant and you have some beautifully poetic phrases. Well done!

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you liked they’ve poetic phrases.

[Onlyme]

Wonderful poem. About holding on to a glimmer of hope. Even when you feel the going get harder. Heartfelt and amazingly expressed. With faith and love are interwoven into its pattern.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you liked the faith it had.

[Onlyme]

Thank you for the great poem.

[Kathy Van Kurin]

"My Light"
Ji-Suk,
A clinging to a single thread of good. This poem is a strong voice to how a person can hang on to something that gives hope even if gone. To know that something good was real and that it was one's own. The fresh smell of lemons even though described as bitter at the end is such a wonderful way to bring the essence of the experience to the memory. This was a strong poem. I enjoyed it and it's hopeful and melancholic theme contrasting but enhancing one another.
Blessings,
Kathy

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you liked the 'lemons'!

[Kathy Van Kurin]

Yes. I do like them and your poem tool I hope you continue to fine enjoyment in life and writing.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you!

[Chris Shaw]

Beautiful, tender, deep expression. There are some lovely poetic lines as well. On an emotional level, you got through to this reader. Well done.

Chris

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thanks! I am glad you thought it was poetic and beautiful!

[Ardra]

its like a silent prayer :)
i liked reading it...
some people remain a light... and guess when they walk away we feel we are left in darkness..but in your case that person seem to have managed to let the light shine..that's a wonderful thing...

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you liked the meaning of it!