To Live With Love

Everyone wishes for happiness. 
Being no different myself, there's no way I can escape it.
Wishing to not end up unhappy,

we all scrambled for the only seat available.

Unable to even mourn 
The lives that weren't chosen,

I'm still here today,
Living shamelessly...
Apologizing to someone whose face I can't even see.

My mother and cousin fell in love;

Now 23 years have passed since I was born. 
How many people have shown me love?
How many people have I hurt along the way?
I can't...I can't answer that.

Someone who'd wished to be chosen 

might not have been able to see the color of the light.
But I am still searching for it today
as I venture back and forth- again and again-
between wanting to die, and wanting to live.

Inhaling my first breath

after thinking about dying, but stopping myself.

Even if there's nowhere I particularly want to go...
Even if I don't know the reason I was born...

Unable to even mourn 

The lives that weren't chosen,
I'm still wishing today:

"Please keep on living!"
"Please, don't die!"
I scream the words again and again!

I'm here with the people that wished to be chosen,

but the word still continues on today.
I'm still searching for a place to belong
As I lose my way- again and again- between
wanting to die, and wanting to live.

I hope each and every life that's born
can feel love, at the very least!
So they can someday learn to be kind...

So that a kind morning can someday visit this world...

I wrote this poem because what does it mean by "to live" and "to love?"
I've always been searching for the answer.
I don't know. People say the word 'love,' 

but what is love again?

Reviews

[Onlyme]

Opened hearted pure honesty and spoken from your soul, poetry to my soul from yours.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you liked it!

[Riddhi]

Actually to tell you the truth I also don't know what love means!!! I never felt that..And actually I am also a person who still struggles in desire to either live or die..And actually I am waiting for that day when everything bad that is happening with me come to and end..But to be honest I really don't love this life and I don't even love living it..But still I do live..Sometimes I feel as if I just inhale and exhale but that is not what life means..I always like your writings because I can easily relate myself with your writings...You are a great writer who carve his feelings and emotions into a beautiful poem...
Keep on writing..

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

I’m flattered. Thanks very much! I’m glad you liked it and could relate to it.