Go Away

A Poem by 송지석 / Ji-Suk

Nobody would know how scary the mask I wear is

I don’t even know what I traded my passion for in place of everyone’s praise

For what am I insisting on trying so hard for to keep on running

Feeling inferior and guilty is what’s left reality is rising and blocking my throat

What is what if the card that life has thrown at me is really right

Others judge for me what is so simple

The lyrics I put my heart into isn't worth reading to them

Everyone wants to chase after money and fame

In the end, my lyrics are trash. Letters GO AWAY

Why do they all only look at me close-mindedly Whatever I did to walk enthusiastically the world

To them was hypocrisy trying to holding his head up in pride

People stared at the young child like he was dumb

Adults shamelessly worry for you after stepping, ripping, and making you fall over

Values surrounded with money their crooked compass

Don’t try to defend me until the end I rather leave than become like someone like them

Respect toward my dongsaengs who thought it was happiness and ran

To me above the night sky reverence for my brother in my heart

Every night I spend my lonely nights with bad thoughts

No one needs to hold me so I shut my mouth tight

With a glass of soju I anesthetize the sadness, in the end, it’s all one thing

I don’t even remember any more just what a dumb s**t like me is

Hyung, I wanted to live without an ounce of shame to my hyungs and dongsaengs no matter what I did

The a******s who ruined this are living with their bellies full

Just as they don’t pay attention to the victim mentality they have left behind

To try to forget all the ignorant ones is like empty dust

Just like the pills in my left hand, my love has also left me

I know I want to leave and put down the weight of reality that trapped me and just cry

I think I need it I’m my own refuge, right?

When you’re feeling the loneliest and having a hard time from this world

I will pat your shoulder you can lean into me then

However, whenever I am having a hard time so that you won’t even be interested

Get far away from me, all the words of comfort is meaningless

Why?

The meaning of ‘hurt’ to me, no way only to the people full of lies

Every night I suffer from nightmares, leave me alone

I’m just doing my things

© 2018 송지석 / Ji-Suk

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Laurierose

Very strong emotion here. Very expressive. The greatest thing about writing is finding courage to express emotions that were otherwise too complex to explain, verbally. This was a dark read though it seemed very personal, and I appreciate you sharing this. Not many of us are capable of sharing such honesty though you've mastered that in your writings. Great read.

Posted 6 Years Ago

6 Years Ago

Thanks very much! I hope I can give hope to others!

sette

and that is what courage brings us a purpose to live on and a purpose to live for

Posted 6 Years Ago

6 Years Ago

Thanks very much! I hope I can give hope to others!

wordman

people are very cruel,don`t think of their actions..and who died and made them chief
it was very well written

Posted 6 Years Ago

6 Years Ago

Thank you very much! People are cruel

6 Years Ago

my pleasure

Loneliness....the most unwanted era!
Whoever goes through only he/she can explain it the most of the most....I guess how.much they endure when the whole society finds pleasure in sucking their last droplet of blood and their corpse is the victory of them!
Keeping calm can help....but I guess hardly they can keep themselves!
Strong write Ji Suk!