Memory

Why do the things we care about always fade away
Even your gentleness and smile will slowly start to change

Those hard words you exchange that hurt so much, 

those painful feelings that collide,

You throw them at me so fiercely, they leave scars on my heart that will not heal 

I don't love you, but I just can't forget you 

The memories with you are terrible

It's too much for me to bear

I wanted to hold you tight like the bond between mother and son, but I just can't

I've got nowhere left to go, and from my hands,

my dreams scatter and fall
The words I wanted to say...Hey, I just want to tell you that I want to forget you

When did things start to go wrong? We two are so far apart 
The more I want, the more I am losing your love

So where is your love right now? Oh, can you tell me?
There's nothing at all that I want, no 
If I tell you right now without holding back then will I be able to get to where you are? 

I just want to forget, but there's no way to forget

Oh, I was so foolish back then, back there in those days

But now my memory is shaken by beams of darkness

I don't want to hear you out, but I repeat the same mistake

When we were fighting, you hurt me so bad 

The words I wanted to say...Hey, I just want to tell you that I want to forget you

I don't want to make a brand new start with you - yes with you

If I just keep silent and don't reach for you
If I did that, would that be okay? Hey...

My cheeks are all wet with bitter tears

My heart is lost in darkness, with no sign at all of light

Mistakes after mistakes you made, 

and they twisted and tore us apart 

Can you tell me how to turn back time to the day before it went wrong if that ever existed?
Can you show me that please?

I wanted to hold you tight like the bond between mother and son, but I just can't

I've got nowhere left to go, and from my hands,

my dreams scatter and fall
The words I wanted to say...Hey, I just want to tell you that I want to forget you

Reviews

[Crowley]

Painful and heartfelt, these types of challenges almost anyone can identify with in regular relationships, but double as painful when it involves family. The piece is well written and flows along well, but that last line is a painful one. Keep it up!!!

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad that you had liked it and liked the emotion.

[Coyote Poetry]

Some thoughts and memories can never leave us. Like soldiers coming back from war. They learn to accept war and they try to live. We must do the same. Thank you for sharing the powerful poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much!

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[John the Baptist]

This work clearly reflects the level of bitterness and pain that can arise from a family estrangement. This one seems to reflect the final breaking of the bonds between a mother and son. The son vents unrestrained anger toward the mother. One can hear the sense of outraged abandonment in the son's words as he says he wants only to forget her. Yet there is also the sense that something is holding him back; he may fear a final break as much as he says he desires it. He may fear to face life without the relationship, which in a strange way may also have provided a sense of security. At the poem's end he says he wants to forget his mother one last time, but we still wonder if he is totally sincere.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you, it's about the entrangment between my abusive mother and me.

[Zoya]

That would've been hard to pen, with all those emotions that you've expressed. Most of us have been on that side. Forgive or forget. Forgetting seems right and easy, but mind you it's never.
A really evocative write. Although the repetition was a little distracting, it was a good attempt overall. Nicely written!

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

I'll forget her, but I won't ever forgive her for the abuse she caused me.

[Ardra]

Words filled with remorse and sadness.... it's hard when we are not able to let go of them....
Nicely painted...

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much.

[Locke Redwyne (night sy..]

This is really well written, good job.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much!

[Laurierose]

Very realistic. The tug of war of feelings was apparent in this piece. When we reflect on love, it's natural to want to hold on tightly to the memory of who gave us comfort. Though sometimes no matter how hard we commit to holding on, that person may slip through your fingers like water. From there, healing happens. Great read.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

I have forgotten about my biological mother as much as I could

[barleygirl]

The thing I hate about heartbreak poems is when the writer blames or whines. Here I’m happy to say, your poem does not settle into those boring over-used patterns of love-loss messages. You take the time to develop a true-to-life situation where the narrator is stuck between longing for someone to go away & longing for him/her to stay. This is realistic becuz we all have alternating feelings at such times. Your message is multi-layered, just like it is with true-life situations. We are never “all in” or “all out” and you show that here, the way the narrator is bouncing around with a variety of feelings. As it relates to true life, however, I feel too many young people accept a jumble of confusion as a relationship. As an old person, I’ve gone thru many situations & this one probably won’t get any better. The best thing to do is to leave & not let “wanting to try again” feelings creep back into one’s head. But, as you show so well here, most people spend a good amount of time bouncing back & forth, before being able to make a much-needed break (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you thought of it as realistic because I have been there myself!

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Mmm...tears, combination of H2O and NaCl..salty taste but while separation feels like bitter...I really like these and more micro details that you made more strong in the poem and at last it makes the poem more absolute, more smooth to go through....
Thanks for sharing Ji Suk!😊

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! I am glad you liked it!

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Wc..Ji Suk😊