I Will Smile

It hurts so much, it could kill me

For my sake, I hide behind a mask

I see myself in the mirror

I ask myself 

Should I let you go?

Will it really make you happy if I let you go?

Forget someone about someone like me
I need some quiet time for myself

Did you blurt out things that you didn't mean?
I replay your angry face when you told me to get lost  

I thought about your expressions
I tried to make our relationship beautiful 

But you've tainted our future memories

I've never imagined a life with you

But be happy even if I am not in the picture

I'm letting go of this hand

I'll still let go of this hand 
I'm letting go of both hands.

I think it’s right to end it about now

It hurts so much, it could kill me

For my sake, I hide behind a mask

I see myself in the mirror

I ask myself 

Should I let you go?

Will it really make you happy if I let you go?

You stand in front of me and keep crying

After unexpected lines were said, the next chapter began

You tell me to take back the words I spit out
You grab my face, you're sinking to the ground like a pitiful loser

That's not the future I saw 

Like a lonely dog that's tied

Just looking at you seems like a sin

I swallow up any regrets and feelings

I'm letting you go

Be sure to live a worthwhile life even though I am not part of it

Promise to change yourself and not go to your old ways of manipulation and abuse

As soon as I say that, you turn your back on me

I won't hang on, that's foolish, I will smile

This is me, it's me, don't hesitate anymore

Leave

It hurts so much, it could kill me

For my sake, I hide behind a mask

I see myself in the mirror

I ask myself 

Should I let you go?

Will it really make you happy if I let you go?

It's the last time I give you my heart
Our love itself was never beautiful

It's the last time I give you my heart

Our love itself was never beautiful

Me with iron shackles on my legs

I'm more like me

It's a beautiful pain
It's killing me

I swallow up my tears

I put on a smiling mask

I feel so relieved right now

Please don't worry about me

Reviews

[lightsong]

I say let it go, let it go my friend... it's the best, for the better, nothing is good in hanging on into something like this, I feel it in Your words, there is nothing good, the best for both of You is to let it go, maybe then later at some point in the suture You will met again in a more good shape and better situation, maybe the solution is to go into separate ways, there is anguish and hurt, wounds that need to be healed away, even if You feel like You are responsible to stay, remember, if You do, You are not going anywhere good, nor You are doing anything good , You just make Your self "stuck".

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Yep, I had to let go of my mother or else it wouldn't be good for my mental health.

[John the Baptist]

This work describes the breakup of a longterm intimate relationship. The speaker seemingly knows he has to do this, but severing the bonds finally is difficult. He acknowledges he gave his heart to the other, but knows "Our love itself was never beautiful." It was, in fact, like "iron shackles" on his legs. In the last verse we see the pain he is going through, but he knows he must forge ahead. In the end, he feels "so relieved" and advises the other not to worry about him. We see in this poem how relationships can both elevate us but also drag us down. The speaker has gone through a learning experience. Hopefully the knowledge obtained will enrich his journey.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

It's a song about my mother who emotionally, physically, and sexually abused me.
Yep, I had to let go of my mother or else it wouldn't be good for my mental health.
Thank you.

[sette]

maybe there is a reason behind it but then sometimes it is easier to let someone go than to end up hurting that person more

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Yep, I had to let go of my mother or else it wouldn't be good for my mental health.

[Butters]

Awesome job- I see you e put a lot of emotion into this piece. It really resonates with me because sometimes letting people go is necessary but not easy.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Yep, I had to let go of my mother or else it wouldn't be good for my mental health.

[Chris]

How nobly we see ...our selves... selflessly "giving" an other the freedom to exercise their choice as if WE alone have the power to choose what is right or best for them (other than our own children - of course). Truly noble... in sight.

Relationships aren't that simple anymore (if they ever were that simple).Arranged relationships were from social custom and familial power - and still exist in today's world where so-named enlightened self-interest prevails.

Good meaningful structure. The final wording suited the emotional building within the preceding stanzas.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much for your input!

[Locke Redwyne (night sy..]

Wow, this is so full of emotion and well written, good job!

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you! I had to let go of my mother or else it wouldn't be good for my mental health.

[Coyote Poetry]

Never easy to release love. Bad love or good love. We shall miss.
"It's the last time I give you my heart
Our love itself was never beautiful
It's the last time I give you my heart
Our love itself was never beautiful"
The above lines. Honest, direct and logical. Better to run then to swim in a mess. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much! c:

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[Dave]

I may be wrong, but you seem so torn between your love for this person
and the terrible pain they inflict upon you even though its only verbally.
You have the need to hide behind the mask so that your true feelings are
not revealed. I appreciate the strong emotions in your writing.

Take care - Dave

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

It's a song about my mother who emotionally, physically, and sexually abused me.

Thank you.