Fight Against Demons For You

An old poem I wrote

The way I am, someone like me is better off dead 

Where someone like me being alive 

brings sadness to tens of thousands of people

And no one wants me: I wish that's the kind of world it was.

If by just erasing me away

Hundreds of millions of people rejoiced

And no one held hatred for anything

Then I reject such a happy thing

Just like that, I'd love to disappear.

Where someone like me being alive 

Doesn't even register for hundreds of millions of people

And no one wants me:

If that were the world, would that be okay?

Even if I were wiped away

That wouldn't change some hundred million people.

If no one will resent me, then 

The result's the same, a loss for me. 

In the end, everyone collapses in the same manner. 

"My Self" made in others will crumble away.

In the end, everyone separates the same way�"but�"

Why do you smile so much?

Just because I'm alive 

If you smile like that 

No matter how sad, how much I want to disappear�"

If only all my reasons to say goodbye

Went away.

Even if I were wiped away

That wouldn't change some hundred million people.

But there's something preventing me 

And showing me that face, I can't bear to laugh about it

I want to be someone like you. 

I want to be someone that feels very "me."

If I want to, I can just go and do it. 

But then would that really be me?

Reviews

[sette]

courage guaranteed to fight off demons of the past and start living again

[Nisha M.]

Another brilliant piece. I enjoyed reading this :)

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much!

[Locke Redwyne (night sy..]

Wow, this is really sad and depressing, but not in a bad way. You're really good at this, keep going.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thanks! I found this poem in my storage that's like five years old actually