To Grandparents

A Poem by 송지석 / Ji-Suk

I remember you did not care about us

Your cold eyes and stern expression

You blamed us for sending our parents to jail

At first, you didn't believe us and when there was enough proof

You told me I deserved the sexual, physical and emotional abuse for being a b*****d child

Those words stabbed me deep in my heart and made me feel like a worthless person

All I ever wanted was to hold that warm hands of yours but you turned your cold back on us

I thought after those terrible years from my parents, I could start anew with you

But it became evident that I wouldn't have any happy memories with you that I craved for

Grandma, why didn't you hug me and console me?
Grandfather, why didn't you try protecting me and be the father I never had?

Why did you turn your backs on us and not your children?

Where was that outstretched hand of yours to give me comfort?

Do you not know the extent of the pain you caused me?

Do you not know how I became suicidal because of you, because of the hurtful words you told me?

Now, you're in an elderly home, but you've forgotten about us and everything?

It's funny how you can forget your memories, but I can't.

Where were you when I needed you the most?
Why did you turn your backs on your grandchildren and blame us?

Why couldn't things be different?
All I ever wanted was your acceptance but I was denied of that chance.

Your words cut deep into me like a knife and you've killed me inside

Are you no different than them?

© 2018 송지석 / Ji-Suk

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Donna

I'm so glad your parents went to jail, that is where they deserve to be. Your Grandparents turning there backs on you, that surprises me. How could they do this? I will never understand. Thanks for sharing.

Posted 6 Years Ago

6 Years Ago

I don't know why. Maybe they didn't want me in the first place?

Coyote Poetry

In life we will learn. Few people will love us. Must forgot the negative people and be better. I had bad parent and I became a good parent. Your words powerful and sad. Your Grandparent missed out. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
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