The Self-Hatred Monster

I am vulnerable and empty void

I’ve exchanged my bitter past for happiness

And that monster demands for more 

At times it puts a collar on my neck

To ruin and swallow me with self-hatred 

The hateful monster that you see is a part of me

my true self is fading away 

The loneliness that wraps around my neck like a noose until I can't breathe

My blurry tear-welled eyes can't see the light   
I'm struggling to just breathe again

Sorrow has created this monster

Please do not look for my hidden self.
I've thrown away my past and it has changed me

I am not the same so please stay away

I fear I will taint you because of the monster is inside of me

Inside I've been disturbed, my sanity was stolen away 

As time goes by, I feel like I’m turning into a monster

Reviews

[Davidgeo]

Excellent work.

Self loathing is a toxic son of a b***h and you expressed that perfectly I think.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thanks for your kind words.