To Mother

Sorry but I don't feel bad 

I knew once I fell from that cloud of love I held onto, believing you'd show me a drop of love, but I've given up on that a long time ago

You try to make me feel guilty with your cunning contradiction and manipulative words

You have poisoned my mind and know I must forget you to live on happily

But it's so hard from all the painful memories you gave me

Your problem is that you want a compromise between my brother and me but you just do it to manipulate us 

I know you are lonely in jail, but maybe you should have thought about what you made us feel for years and after the abuse

My heart is broken into pieces, the time has frozen

I’ll close my eyes so just stay where you are sitting in that dark lonely cell and leave us alone 
I hope you're beaten and raped in jail for all the wrongs you did to us, I don't care if I go to Hell for hating you and wishing evil upon you

Sure you’re human, you can make mistakes, but I won't use that excuse again

You full well knew what you were doing 
Let me go now, I am no longer your son
Untie my hands, if I have to say it again, let me go now

You just live as if nothing happened and the cruel pain you forced us to endure at a young age and you still try to make me visit you in that cold prison 

You're just an evil person, there is no ounce of purity or empathy in your soul 

Don’t even open your mouth, you’re guilty, clearly guilty

Don’t take a step away from this prison, you’re guilty, clearly guilty
When you're released in twenty years, stay away from me 

I don't want your poison to intoxicate me 

Did you really think I’d say, okay, that’s fine, I can’t do what you want 

If you haven’t gone through this, you’ll never know what the Hell you put us through 
I'll endure this somehow even though your toxic self had poisoned me twice

I won’t get deceived again, I am not that naive child anymore

Like you said, a person like me should just die, so I am cutting your ties with you foreber

I tried to escape

‘cause you messed up my mind  and made me suicidal 

I am not that sweet child anymore who was manipulated by you 

So I had to stop this and end it once for all

You full well knew what you were doing 
Let me go now, I am no longer your son
Untie my hands, if I have to say it again, let me go now

You just live as if nothing happened and the cruel pain you forced us to endure at a young age and you still try to make me visit you in that cold prison 

You're just an evil person, there is no ounce of purity or empathy in your soul

 Don’t even open your mouth, you’re guilty, clearly guilty

Don’t take a step away from this prison, you’re guilty, clearly guilty
When you're released in twenty years, stay away from me 

I don't want your poison to intoxicate me 

Reviews

[Locke Redwyne (night sy..]

This one kind of left me speechless...
*applauds*

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you very much.

[A.Tarek]

Strong and sad.. very expressing your pain and her past effect on you. hope you find some peace now, my friend

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

I have found peace with great friends and the love of my life

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful and sad story written in the poetry. When we release heavy pain and burden. Break your heart and you can move on. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thanks! I am glad you thought of it as outstanding c:

[Coyote Poetry]

I had AWOL parent. I was raised-up by kind Grandparent. A powerful write.

[sette]

it speaks out a lot of anger and pain towards your mother, i don't know the story behind it, but i can feel your pain especially with the relationship you have with your mother, manipulation is rather a strong word to use but then you may have the reason for using the word. I just hope you stay strong with this and try to live your life fully. I can sense the angst in this poem.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Thank you
My mother was manipulative, physically, mentally, along with sexually abusive to my brother and me at a young age

My father was no better too