Everything you did for my sake

When I was 7 years old
I was a little boy who never listened
My big brother said you may not know
But life gets harder as time goes by
I know you got a lot of pain brother 
So I, 송지석, will do something to ease your pain
I will give back the things you did for me for my sake

Like taking the blame and getting beaten in my stead by our abusive parents
I am sorry I could never repay you for your sacrifices but I will return them to you one by one

You’re still by my side and will always be 
You’re always always
I probably wouldn’t have known how to hold onto a woman’s heart without you
All the things that seemed natural to were was made by only you
You gave me countless lessons and taught me that was was an ocean before me and not a puddle 
You’re my truly god
Maybe God blessed me? 

Even when I hated everything, it was no one’s fault, I kept you in my heart
When I held your hands, it was hard for me, and it felt painful to me to see your pained smile
So over the phone, I heard

I’m sure you’re busy these days
Brother, don’t worry, I have a good job
This is what I say all the time, I’m fine
I’ll be good I’ll be fine over and over 
But have I ever told him that I love him? 
Even though he had countlessly told me that he loved me, I just said I know 

Now I am twenty-three years old
That annoying kid who would follow you around everywhere became an adult
The more money I earn, the less time I have to be with you 
I make lame excuses of being busy and declining to meet up with you when you're in town
This is the greatest shame of all and I hope I can make it up somehow
I know you got a lot of pain brother but I will help you overcome with it like you did the same for me

Brother, don’t fret but just look forward to tomorrow
We can see the sunrise and know a new day is awaiting us

Always remaining in me is a sorry heart
Even when I hated everything, it was no one’s fault
When I first held your hands, it was hard for some reason
So over the phone I heard

I’m sure you’re busy these days
Brother, don’t worry, I have a good job
This is what I say all the time, I’m fine
I’ll be good I’ll be fine over and over 
But have I ever told him that I love him? 
Even though he had countlessly told me that he loved me, I just said I know 

You’re still by my side and will always be 
You’re always always

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

thank you for entering this wonderful piece into my Dear me contest thanks

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Youre welcome c:

[lightsong]

it's never easy on You, I know, never easy on Your heart, and I think that's why You are can't meet him when he comes to town, because You feel You are in debt to him, and You can't ever give him what he gave You.

dear Ji-Suk ( I hope I wrote Your name right), we are born with roles, and Your precious brother's role was to protect You when You were little, he knows it, and he will do it again and again if it is needed, You would do the same if You were him, the greatest gift You give him is to keep being his family, You are his only family, I know... one day You will reward him in a way or another what he did to You, until then keep close to him, keep smiling for him, he is far than an amazing person to teach You how to have a warm loving heart, instead of a sore one, to teach You how to love and how to give love too, how to hold a woman inside Your heart.

Bless You warmly, tenderly both of You, You my friend and Your precious brother, show him Your words here, if You didn't yet, he will feel You, treasure Your words like no one else.

[송지석 / Ji-Suk]

Oh wow thank you! You made me tear up actually! Yep! You wrote my name correctly!