Trust

The mere thought of civilian life made him want to gouge his eyes 

He wanted to be with the presidents, the CEO's, the rich guys 

Not to be part of a culture that would embrace his normality

He wanted something more out of this life

And everyday he would come home to his wife feeling unfulfilled

He couldn't provide his family with a big house because he was unskilled 

He couldn't provide them with a new car because of the electric bill that had just been instilled 

He couldn't provide them with enough 

So his wife say this is it 

You don't provide me with what we need 

I want a husband who can succeed 

Not one who can barely pay the bills 

While working 12 hour shift

My mother told me I should've married Clark Smith

I married you because I thought you would make money one day 

Not a bum racking up the bills to pay 

And the man says 

This is so frustrating 

God what should I do 

I thought you said you would see me through 

I went to church 

I followed you 

And I still feel as if your love has withdrew 

And today I got a letter in the mail

It was from my eldest daughter 

Her husband just left her 

And God I don't know why you would give me this wear and tear 

While all of these other things are happening 

Oh the pain, the torture it brings 

Is it to test me 

Or is it some sick joke 

I want to trust you God I really do 

But after all that I've been through 

I don't know if I can still trust you 

Since he no longer has anything to believe in 

He believes it is time to end it 

Because no one seems to get it 

And he is about to lose it 

So if anyone does permit 

He holds the knife in his hand 

Unsure of what he will do 

And then a small ring on the telephone

Someone on the other end saying "I love you"

What does that even mean 

I thought I had a wife who loved me 

Wrong!

I thought my daughter was loved

Wrong! 

And who really loves 

We are all just selfish beings 

Uh God why?

Why this pain? 

So laying on the floor in tears 

Unsure if one blow could end all his fears 

He decides to pray for strength 

"Why not"

"It couldn't hurt to try"

"Dear God take this pain away"

"For you are more powerful than I" 

"I don't know why you had this plan"

"For Lord I am just a mere man"

"Amen"

And when his eyes opened 

He saw new light 

It wasn't as if the demons had vanished

But he came to the realization that he had his protector in sight 

And the protector's great might 

May be able to get him through the night 

And combat the demons that instilled the fright 

It was a different feeling 

A feeling of security 

One that came from trusting 

From trusting the one without impurity

Author's Note

Thinking of memorizing this one tell me what your think

Reviews

[Emily W]

I enjoyed reading this, I like the way this poem makes you feel for the character and how at the end he finds hope, it's quite touching. It is a good story to tell :)

[L.M.Warde]

I like this. I like how it portrays the tough turmoil that can lead us to such dark and confusing places. I don't think I could ever memorize this myself, if you want to though, I respect that.