The Ghost that is Me

About how the past can catch you off gaurd at times.

There’s that familiar burning feeling again

That one I get when I know death is watching

That sting of an up tempo heartbeat

Cold sweat glistens on my palms

Burning air fills my lungs and seizes their life granting ability

My vision blurs and instinct envelopes me

Fight or flight? I’m too far gone to make the choice on my own

I’ll just slip away again and hope I wake in comfort and not this again

This painful roller coaster I seem to always ride when I lose myself

The only one that has the power to bring me back again and again

The love I get hurts, but I know that it’s true

The pain finds its place in my heart and ignites the spark

To burn the rest to ashes that were always meant

To blow free with the wind no matter how much time is spent

Looking in the rear view, looking at what used to be but is no more

This time is different though, I feel it’s time for change

I’ll twist that rear view mirror off and never look back

I have a destination that I promised you I’d be

So there I will be, no matter the cost

The price is insignificant when you can almost see what the reward will be

When I make it there on time, make sure my landing bed is soft and warm

When I wake once again, I will have quite a tale to tell

So all I ask is that you listen and try to understand

The person who did those awful things wasn’t really me

But just a person I used to be, but had let die a slow death that never ends.

Reviews

[Misled Legend]

I like this. I found it quite interesting. It's true that the past can bit you on the arse at times.