, and i love you too.

great, thats just wonderful.

first i find out that you told her to lie, and tell me that she didn't know what happened, letting me assume that she either made you up or you were dead, then i find out that you have had regular contact with her, but haven't had the nerve to contact me.

I dont know what you were thinking, you had no right to keep this from me.....

because nooooooo, i couldn't possibly have feelings too?! No, thats too much for your selfish and ignorant little mind to deal with.

Well. Heres a thought- i may have grieved you, and i have certainly missed you, and i even may have possibly cried my way through every fathers day since i was old enough to know what her words meant...But if you had just contacted me, or talked to me, i wouldn't of had to carry that hurt, and that pain.

But again- you couldn't possibly have contemplated my feelings, or the way you affected me, nooo- you and your bitchy s**t of a new wife were too busy trying to please your social climbing- mother .

Did you know that i found out that you were having contact with my half brother in germany? Did you know how that destroyed me so totally i cut myself? Do you know the first thing about me, like the colour of my hair, or my favourite food, or the fact that i play the harp? I don't suppose you do, seeing as jerks like you don't care about people like me.

 

But, i do take into account that you have a family now, and that you left my mom for a reason, but i still don't see how that exempts you from what you chose to do...

Can't i just meet you once? Is that too much to ask? You don't have to like it, or stay for very long....All i want is to meet you, and find out if you like chocolate and ice cream and art, or if my mom just made that up to please me....

You don't even have to talk to me ever again....

Please...

But you said no to that as well, as if seeing me was going to mean that you catch some terrible disease, or ruin you life...

Well,

f**** you very much, and i love you too.