The message of truth.

This is a message I decided to write to one of my ex's who keeps popping up and hurting me. But you know s**t happens, and when it does all we can do is work through it and hope it gets better....

I try, I will never be okay. I hate that I love you. I hate that no matter what you do to me or do to hurt me, I will always be there for you. I hate that even if you manage to brake me a thousand times, i will still think you are the most amazing person i have ever met and fall in love with you every time I see you. I hate that you have me rapped around your finger without realizing it... But I love that you hate me. Because it makes it so much easier for me to stay away from you. It helps me realize that no matter I do to help someone or make them feel special, that they will always find someone who they think is a million times better than you. And they will say that 'getting with you was the worse thing that I ever did!'... But you know. I may hate that I love you. And you may hate me. But I 'love' that the things that are so SIMPLE can make you feel the worst you ever have. Those little things that just flash into your life and then vanish like lightning. Just because it happened quickly, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. It doesn't mean it's not affective. None of it matters if you tell yourself it doesn't. But I can tell myself cancer doesn't matter. But that doesn't change the fact that it kills so many people a year. Big things hurt. Yes. But it is the all the little, small things that slowly eat away at your heart and soul, that will eventually kill you."