Cutter

Does it make me stronger
To live through being a cutter?
Does it make me weaker
To ever had the need to cut?
Does it make me a loser
To not be able to handle emotions?
Does it make me a dreamer
To wish it all away?

I raise my blade to my wrist again
But like the past
There's no one to stop me
Does it make me a loner
To not have care and love?

Reviews

[Sleeping Maiden]

This is such a powerful poem! And i can totally relate. I used to do this... when I suffered from depression back in high school. Well, i still have depression but i don't cut anymore.. Though I understand the deep pleasure of it letting go of the pain.. Sometimes i even miss doing it.. but anyways..
This is a good piece. Questions I've asked myself too back in the past. Well done with this poem.

[Yari Garcia (Older Prof..]

Very interesting to read, seeing as I've been a cutter myself. It does bring a lot of questions and insecurities, which you've captured perfectly in this poem. You should write more in-depth on this topic.

[stellasautelle]

powerful poem. well done

[tekphobik]

Once upon a time I was playing "The Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past" for the Super Nintendo and asked my mom what to name my character. She responded with "Cutter" and since then whenever I see it in the context you use it in I kind of laugh.

Anyway.

I'm very familiar with self-mutilation. I can understand the confusion and guilt and pleasure of it completely. What I would suggest is that you expound upon those feelings and delve deeper into what exactly is the driving force behind it. Spare yourself no expense and instead look deep into the meaning behind doing what you do. Don't cop out with a sentence or two, look harder than that.

There's some great material there.

[Krista]

I ask myself those questions all the time. Me being a cutter as well I understand where those questions come from. I know what it is to not be able to cope or be around other people. Just to want to start over and be stronger than you are now.