Feelings

A Poem by Kitsune

My feelings are sooooooo cunfuzling!! Somedays im happy. Somedays im depressed. And somedays im numb!! SOOOOOO CONFUSEING!!!! Free-verse poems, or sumthing lik that..

Depressing Day:

I hate my life,

It's nothing put strife.

And even if you say i love you,

I'm too far away to hear you.

So I continue on, living this way,

hoping that some day,

things will change.

But so far,

nothing has happened.

The skies i see, remain the same.

Rain falling, and thunder cracking.

And my heart is breaking,

from the pain this life is making.

But, i continue living on.

I can not die.

People depend on me,

and i hate letting people down.

I hate watching people cry.

I don't want to make people feel the way i do.

And in order for them to be happy,

i must choose one path of two,

and i choose life.

(Woah, [sips juice box] that was entirely waaaay to depressing for me. I think my brain just died... [looks at you] did you kill it?)

Day of Happiness:

I live for a reason,

that is still unknown.

And season by season,

I continue to wonder what it is.

Is it my father?

My loving and caring friends?

My mother?

Or even my dog?

Well, whatever it is,

I am glad I am alive to live for it.

After all,

i have more than one reason.

So I continue living day by day,

hoping that there'll be a way,

to discover my reason.

Everyone has one after all,

don't they?

(I DON'T KNOW WHY THIS TURNED OUT AS SLIGHTLY DEPRESSING!!!!! Im a failure!!! [Curls up into a ball in a corner] I seriously couldnt tjink of anything though....)

Numb Day:

I have lost feeling,

I have lost joy and sorrow.

For you cannot have one without the other.

But its not like i care,

im too numb to be aware.

I don't know how i became like this.

It just came over me without me knowing.

It took the pain that was growing,

along with the joy I love showing.

And turned them into muddled feelings of numb-ness.

Can i ever escape,

from this place of no return?

I can know longer feel,

my emotions' strong burn.

I will continue to fall deeper and deeper into this never-ending pit,

wondering if i will ever rise.

(BTW, i have absolutly NOOO idea where the motivation for this came from...

Tell me what you think.... i guess.. [dot, dot, dot])

Thnx for reading! :)

© 2010 Kitsune

Author's Note

Uhhhhh..... just ignore the depressing-ness, haha. ;)
To Sonya: BTW, the pic on it is the pic i choose for ur story! You can find it on photobucket.. and dont worry, ill send u the link. ok?