intro i supposeA Chapter by Kitsune-Yokai
Music is life for most but for me it’s all I have.
I live as a young girl with no care for anything other than music. I sing my
heart out for no others to hear and I suppose this is my story. I am Amber, a
sixteen year old junior in high school. My grades are above average but I am no
genius. I’m a weird girl who can’t keep a relationship past two months, well it
hasn’t happened yet anyway. I plan on going to college and owning my own
restaurant. I can cook pretty well I just lack the motivation to. My family
calls me lazy but I disagree. I’m more of a thinker not a do-er. I don’t fit in
with my family only my little brother Jay. We are a lot alike. When we were
little we were like twins even though I’m a year older. We dress the same style
and listen to the same music give or take a few bands. My older brother is deaf
and I’m learning how to sign to him so we can communicate. My dad works all the
time so I hardly have a relationship with him. My mom and I are pretty close
but complete opposites. I have a cat I named angel just because he is the
opposite of one. It’s also a reminder of how I used to be, innocent, without a
care, loved by all. Then I turned thirteen. My parents became a little more
distant. I don’t know whether it was because I was becoming a woman or because
I was a teenager. Either way my relationship with them was never the same. My
little brother and I grew closer and it was like it was us against the world,
most of the time it was. No one accepted us and I suppose that’s all I really
wanted. But with the way I am now I hardly doubt anyone will. My random colored
hair and I am not pretty or beautiful like other girls. I am different and
never will me what people define as normal. I will always be different and I’m
somewhat proud of it. I wonder if my parents will ever accept me, probably not.
I know one day someone will accept me for me, hopefully anyway. I can’t see the
future. It would be interesting if I could. I would be able to see if he lives
or not. I could see whether I’ll be his or not. I would see who is my special
someone if I even have one. I wonder what I’ll be like when I’m older, still an
outcast or finally fitting in? Have a family or be alone? Be happy or remain
miserable? My life’s questions could be answered with one little power, but as
I know all to well dreams don’t come true. When I was little I never wished on
my birthday candles because I already knew it wouldn’t come true so why waste
my breath. My dreams or wished never
came true anyway. As a lid I suppose I was naive now I realize what a fool I’ve
been. I hope to never go there again, back to those bright days of complete chaos
and happiness that was imaginary. I face the world I different person and it’s
all thanks to my music that I opened my eyes to all the lies and deceit around
me. I found out the truth and because of that music is my life. I couldn’t live
without it and still can’t live without it. Without my music I am alone and
with my music I am with somebody that truly understands me and accepts me. I
guess you could say music is the patch or stitch for the hole that is in my
soul. Music has saved me from many things and it will always be in my heart. © 2012 Kitsune-Yokai |
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Added on May 2, 2012 Last Updated on May 2, 2012 AuthorKitsune-YokaiPalmacosta, GeorgiaAbouti'm kitsune! WOOT WOOT!! i'm a huge writer and anime fan so add me or i will find you.... LOL JKJK! Still add me! Wo Ai Ni!! X3 more..Writing
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