I do it on paper--
vent--
after I have sharpened the pencil
to a pointy spear,
any carves man would be proud to see
It begins as a gentle stroke,
soft and smooth,
but, as my mind recalls the pain
the lines are drawn
deep, rigid and coarse
The pretty face,
sketched in gray
becomes black,
charcoal,
ugly
No longer able to look
at the piercing eyes,
jumping out of the page,
scolding me for being irrational,
I rip her out of my notebook,
and curse her,
“Screw you“, I say.
You do not know me.
You do not know why.