Conquered by depression

Conquered by depression


"To be special is to be alone "
A verse I used to sing
And now I'm all alone
Staring at my phone waiting for it to ring

As they left me behind
I pray for dear death
I pray for rest of my mind

Special , alone , and dead
That's what I'm going to be
All they left , to the last friend
Leaving behind the me

And I no longer can cry
Dead , no longer I will
Thus I hate to say goodbye
I want to say farewell

I crawl to death ,"the must"
As no longer I breath air
I shall inhale the dust
For no one do truly care

"Goodbye cruel world, I'm leaving you today"
No more I can take this fraud , and I know it's a cliche
Help me O dearest God , and take my life away

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Easy to become alone and afraid. I believe we have become more "separate people "in this world. When I was young. I needed a friend. Today I do most things alone. A sad poem. all of us need a place with people with similar dreams and ideas. Just must find it. A powerful poem. Us people who enjoy to read and write. We will have our paper and pen.
Coyote

[Emotionally Blank yet F..]

It's ironic that I'm reading all of these poems by you about being alone because all of these feelings are what i'm feeling right now and it's so hard for me to put my feelings into words yet you and almost everyone else here can pinpoint my feelings like its nothing and it's always done so beautifully! :)

[Aline S. Iniestra]

Loneliness and pain ... bad combination. I loved that very first line; i think that line alone would make it for a poem!!!! but well, i felt it like the first and strongest punch in the face, and the rest teh explanation of it. Great one!!!

[TAO]

I hate that I like this poem. You poets hit much too close to home at times. Amazing. Heartbreaking, but real to the last letter.

[A.A.Romanczuk]

The desperation...the fervor of it...is felt throughout the poem...a peak in darkness swathed...that feeling of wanting to be alone when one is depressed yet not wanting anyone to leave...a beautiful tribute to depression...You speak for many...for far too many....truly a wonderful piece...

[David W Moore III]

special is alone, wow. the verge of despair is always a frightening place. looking down into the abyss and feeling the oppressive weight from above, you just know that the minute you step off, you will implode out of existence.

[Ruth]

A desperate soul on the verge, the summit of lost hope, can it be grabbed back? We all battle that scenario!
A powerful poem love, there is always light in darkness :)
Great poem!
xx

[Ama May Cooper]

beautiful if not really saddening but well worth the read x