begin again

i feel like there is something fundamentally wrong with me
like my pure existence is a universal decay
i don't know how much more there is to say
every lover ive had seems to turn away
seeking a new lover or simply ignoring my existence
i yearn to give my heart away to fully serve but i want the same in return
is my love too much is it not enough
is there something wrong with me
is it my words my actions my appearance
im so tired and broken i want to give up every single day
but there's something that keeps pushing me anyway
do i stay
do i run away
i wish to seek out the voice of the spirits
the magic in the woods
the mystery in the dark
the hunger of the beasts
and the calm of the gentle winds
to forget my past sins and begin again