Hearts Shadowed pain

No Jordan not this one

you woke me up
you made me strong
I loved you from the start
little did I know you felt the same
but I couldn’t take the void you left behind
I could not have you or so I thought
so I searched for someone to fill the void
I told you I cared for them
I did not
not the way I do for you
I didn’t mean to hurt you
but words where said when problems were placed
I yelled and I fell
I may have broken even our friendship..
I do not want this to end..
But it’s too late to enter your heart again..
At night I stay awake even as the world falls into sleep
and I weep for what could have been
for what I did..
And when hearts pain takes over and I fall helplessly to sleep
I dream in hopes of forgiveness..
When I wake I feel hollow and I miss you..
I want to lift you up and steal your pains
I want to make you stronger
I would give anything to be at your side
is it too late
I feel it will be the end of me if you leave..
but if it means a better life for you
open your wings and fly
be free and live your life
either way I know I will never love the same
no one else will be my stars and moon...
no one else will be hurt the same again
I swear it on my name..
Because I cannot love again..
It was and is all to you..
And I’d give the very last of my soul to change what i did..

Author's Note

im not sure what to think of it myself.. is it too much too little.. maybe to honest..

Reviews

[olla]

no one can judge for you.. what is too much too little or too late.. but for myself.. in the end.. I would not want to wonder if I should have tried..

[Kiari Sabon]

thank you and i am trying but things... have well.. ive gotten mixed signals

[olla]

yep.. it sometimes works that way... in my early days I would wait but now I find directness to be better even though I have had to come to terms with the concept of sweating the hard stuff.. but each of us must find our own path.. all anyone else can do is to stand on the side lines and cheer us on..

[Kiari Sabon]

i understand what your saying and thank you

[Mockingbird]

what a cosmic kind of love you have for someone. you should just give this poem to the person whom you have hurt. great confession.

[Kiari Sabon]

thank you and in truth i.. am afraid to because of things that where said between us.. i'm not sure if i should be but i am